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2008-05-05T21:41:00.001+08:00

sorry (:

my last post....100

http://pichouette.wordpress.com/

re-link me!

2008-04-13T16:32:00.004+08:00

<3 i love apple juice...walala

just now right, i was going through some old files, to arrange into the throw away or to keep piles. then i found my old essays! like 5 i think (:

form when i was form 2. hahahaha there's one on food....and on pollution (omg you tell me who has never writen an essay on pollution before -__-) .....got about teachers....one about school

oh! and my favourite story about a room behind the school (: where i stumbled across and found that the school has ghosts at night and people like have to control them.

its not lame ok i very the like that story ><>

somemore unlike my other essays, it wasn't full of mistakes :D

seriously, it was so painful to read a few of the paragraphs. oh, why was my english so bad :'(

2008-04-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

this would be my 98th entry on my blog (:

which is actually pathetic la compared to alot of people i know who blog like dunno what. yes, you zoe. hehe

so right, i think i might finish here with 100 posts wahaha so wonderful (:

then only change to wordpress.

nothing to do with me being very lazy la ok.

2008-04-02T21:47:00.003+08:00

soar throat on monday. and then now i have no voice.

so i cant talk. and apparently i sound like a guy. sigh sigh sigh. why laaaa. i damn hate today. the 2nd of April is officially a bad day. i hate hate hate.

and now the comma on my keyboard isn't functioning.

i love my bed. and i love my soft toys. cause right no matter what they are always there. never questioning. never judging. always the constant reliable thing i need right now. cause everytime i come home i just know they will be on my bed. not angry. not having anything better to do.

will someone pleaseee tell me how to move my archive thingi to wordpress?

2008-03-27T10:22:00.003+08:00

Three things i last bought

paint brushes. like big ones
masking tape.
blades. lots and lots of blades. oh! and water...all because of xin you. hahaha

Three people i want to meet for the first time

james marsters. james marsden. hehe too different people with very similar names :P
lee hom!!!
er...et

Three things i ate this morning

this really weird mee thing. which joshua helped me finish. wahahaha
nips! (:
twisties hehe

Three books i last read

picture perfect (: sooo nice. thank you su ann for introducing me to jodi picoult
er..the dictionary?
oh! i read some narnia thing hahaha

The most overused phrases

you know what....i normally never complete this sentence. hehe
omg omg
shit. the similar term in so many sentences (: see i dont swear wan i dam good.

Three stupid things i did when i probably should've known better

sat beside joshua lam hahahahahaha ^^
said alot of useless things
did not study physics....T.T

Three aims to be achieved this year

get 20A1's. i know i dam nerd and this wont happen since i only took 10 subjects :D
stay 44kg. please please
grow. a foot. i know i dam greedy

Three overdramatic rumours about me

i dont really get rumours la...at least not that i know of. oh! got one rumour. that i like a guy. i dont want to elaborate cause very sakit hati when think about it. T.T

Three misconceptions people have about me

that i study everyday. hahaha you think i that rajin meh?
that i am noisy. T.T im not noisy!
that i am sick....i damn innocent la ok (:

Three favourite comfort food.

nasi lemak nasi lemak
chicken (: like anything chicken
haha mcd?

Three things i should be doing instead now

er making boxes.
watch shang chuen DIE in rugby. damn evil right (:
run around.

joshua still beside me T.T i want to die... like now!

2008-03-26T00:34:00.001+08:00

time has brought about change.

i am going to move my blog. soon.

2008-03-23T22:09:00.002+08:00

a long time ago i thought people who cried everyother day or hour for that matter, were weak. feeble. delicate. people who never heard of self-control and who time and again chose the faint-hearted way to handle.

a little too sensitive for the world who knows nothing of mercy.

toughen up la right? there's nothing important enough for you to pour your heart out, right?

i know now, how very very wrong i was.
sorry.

2008-03-21T23:48:00.001+08:00

i just re-read my post... why are the full stops so invisible @@

is anyone else finding it hard to read????

2008-03-21T23:26:00.002+08:00

you know, i probably should have dropped chem. its just such a rediculus subject.

i detest it so much i never want to see another carbon compound period.

im in a very bad mood now, because i know none of you people have good moods anyway right? they are just so few to come by we should treasure every moment. like bio class. oh, how i loved bio class.

... even though some people made me lose a mark

haha

also right, i want a thing that i can talk to. like a cat. i dunno why a cat but the word cat suddenly appeared. so yea, i want a cat. cause right, you can talk to the cat, and like forever the cat will tell you what you want to hear.

i mean, can you imagine the cat telling you, 'no, don't do that really stupid thing you're thinking off'

see.. cats are good. and no i don't want a dog, i mean i like dogs, but dogs are just so...big. and they look like they can eat you.

oh who am i kidding my mum wont let me have a cat -____-

now who will i talk to?

2008-03-18T20:25:00.002+08:00

this time around, exams were reaaalllyyyy bad. cause right i didnt really bother to study. so i didnt do very well compared to before.

like math, i got 74. i NEVER get that bad..with some exceptions la. and like now, i think the new teacher hates me cause i was lik bugging him to get 1 mark. i want an A la. shoot me -__- if my best subject, yes i know you're calling me a nerd now but! math is just easy la ok, anyway if i cant even do well for math then really just diela

and then...they say the people who went for the seminar wont have to retake the moral paper, but then now. we most probably hav to.

damn fed up la. why like thissss wan?

2008-03-17T21:54:00.002+08:00

i am tired of being unhappy. is it so impossible to be, for a single day, truly content?

screw it la. how come eveytime something good happens something bad is just waiting around the corner. always the SAME bad thing somemore. its like, leave me alone to be happy for just 15 minutes. just 15 minutes of pure bliss.

sigh. anyway, i finished the essay. and. it kinda really sucks. not my fault ok! extreme time constriction. hmph. anyway the point of telling you this is that i realised, i truly do torture my sister.

hehehe

cause right, everytime i write something (apart from my blog posts) i MUST HAVE her approval. everthing from essays to short nonsense. i MAKE her read everything a few times if i have to and she'll tell me what she thinks about it.

i know im a terrible person. but! you see right...i need to know if my essays are berkaiber ke tak. then after she approves i feel confident to pass it up.

hehe

okok...i better go do lisan now

sigghhhhhhh

i hate la. everything

2008-03-12T23:50:00.002+08:00

sigh. i love that feeling of relief. its wednesday, i've finished every homework i can think of with the exception, of course, of an essay. im working on it though (: i emailed my emails and planned out the whole campaign thingi with shu sim.

oh, and my sis got 10A's for spm. 5A1's 5A2's and 1B4..for bio.

i know what you're thinking, shalani is soooooooo screwed

and you are very, very right. how the HELL am i gonna beat 10A's. i mean, i'll be happy with like...8 - -

but its ok (: for now, not thinking about it will make it go away. hehehe

He began panting, apprehensive about what was about to come. ‘Breathe,’ he told himself again and again but to no avail. Nothing can prepare you for something like this, something that can either make or break you, on stage in front of thousands of viewers. He fiddled with his tie, trying to give more room to breathe without actually loosening it. His tux was tightening around his skin, he never felt more uncomfortable. Then, he heard delirious clapping as his opponent walked down the steps, ‘They’re all yours,’ said Robert Cage with a self-satisfied smirk on his face. Exhaling out loud, he found his way to centre stage. ‘Breathe.’

the first paragraph of the essay. its not that wonderful, but i like it. ><>

2008-03-10T00:37:00.003+08:00

everythings over, you told me it'll be ok.
im right here waiting. now, where are you?

everythings gray now.

2008-03-09T23:30:00.005+08:00

as promised..the longest tag thingi you will ever find

Skin Care

What facial cleanser do you use?
er...nuskin? i think thats how u spell it (google doesnt have the picture -_-)

What moisturiser do you use?
wat moisturiser? hehe

How many times a day do you wash your face?
hm..3 if u count water-on-face, 2 if includes like actual washing

Do you use eye make up remover?
i dont use eye make up why need the remover (:

Is your skin oily, dry or combination skin?
it is... mix like some parts normal some oily.. i doubt i have dry skin o.o

What is the best part about your skin?
o.o it isnt like dark dark hehe but you know, its not only cause of my mum being chinese and all cause seriously my dad isnt that dark hehehe

What are your skin problems?
like any other person, my skin is....out of control ><>... pimple la

Make Up
(ish...be prepared to witness patheticness-i dont care that its not a real word hehe)

What foundation do you use?
i dont -_-

What powder do you use?
i dont -__-

What eyebrow pencil do you use?
i dont -___- you know what, who actually uses an eyebrow pencil anyway?

What eyeliner do you use?
oh oh! i HAVE an eyeliner (:(: finally...anyway i dont use it but still

What is your favourite eyeshadow?
i dont have one ):

What mascara do you use?
i have a purple one (: skinfood, courtesy of cy

What are your favorite lipbalms/glosses/sticks?
......my sister HAS one.. body shop
i like watermelon (

Hair

Do you colour your hair?
nope (: 100% natural

What is your stylist’s name?
o.o he has big hair... like hamster hehehe

What salon do you go to?
the one that has a big picture of this person with crazy hair..yes i am well aware that every shop has that (:

What is your natural hair color?
black..but some people told me its slightly brown before (: i blame it on lighting

What is your hair color now?
black.. you know i never thought about dying my hair.. maybe ill do it one day @@!

Do you have straight or curly hair?
hm hm wavy! i do not have curly hair i do not have curly hair ><> all of ya'll who think otherwise can go to hell

Do you use a curling iron?
hell no (read above statement of how i truly detest curly hair)

A straightener?
sisters one but i use it (: at times so that my out-of-control hair is a little more controlable

What kind?
okok its blue...and it has the word philips beside it...

Do you use a blowdryer?
...wat does that even mean

Do you use gel and if so, what kind?
hell no...omg this tag thing is so unreasonable, why cant they ask about something i actually HAVE for gods sake

Do you use mousse, and if so, what kind?
.....what did i tell you

What shampoo do you use?
oh finally...sunsilk (: black

What conditioner do you use?
Do you use leave in conditioner?
i bought one before but for some reason it never really worked ):

okok...i am so sorry but something is happening to my computer so i cant finish the tag thingi -__-

but i think its pretty obvious that i am absolutely PATHETIC hehehe (:

2008-03-02T00:58:00.007+08:00

aite so today i was going to blog about how omg i failed math and add maths and bm

but right, im gonna talk about something more... er, close to home.

yesterday on the 29th of February, yea the day on the leap year, my great grand mother passed away.

we werent close or anything, i mean when i found out i was smiling and stuff. but today i went to her funeral, my first indian funeral. the only other time i've been to a funeral was my grandmother's one a few years back, a chinese one.

yes, my grandmother, who was 92 when she passed on 5 years ago, left before my grandmother, age 89 this year. i think.

interesting right? its because my mum is older than my dad by 2 years and she's the youngest in her family while he's the oldest. so in the end everybody on my chinese side is like really old compared to my dads side.

hehehe

omg, how i digress -_-

ANYWAY, when i went to her funeral today, it was really sad and i really regreted not talking to her or paying any attention whatsoever. its like i didnt make any impact. oh, btw, she really liked my mum. which is a pretty big deal cause shes chinese and all. see how my family is so united (:

omg, not again...

ANYWAY, i regret like alot... so im going to start talking to everybody.... like everyone.

so, since i haven updated in like 2 weeks, cause of exams and crazy internet connection, ill post pictures! (:

er..bio, i am very focused in my work hehe

hehe me studying although you cannot see any books on the table, i am studying ok.

this was taken during prefects camp (: from left, me, siew kheng and aishah.

oh! and as promised, the picture of the turtle bookmark i was suppose to post up a few weeks ago

hehehe

see i compensate not blogging for a long time by giving you long post :P

edit: omg i just saw eewah's blog and the whole tagged thingi. sounds interesting. cher did it too hehe..if i do it ill probably do it after exams :'(

2008-02-18T18:53:00.001+08:00

you know, i'm not ok. and right now i just really wanna talk. like talk and talk and talk about all this stuff that i've been planning to say all this time.

but right now i having noone to turn to. no one who wants to listen.

if someone who cares, who actually realized that i am in NO way ok asked me wats wrong.

then i'll pour my heart out. every last piece.

2008-02-13T23:55:00.003+08:00

she asked, 'how does that make you feel?'

shocking indeed, coming from someone who has only known me for about an hour or so. shocking because, no one has ever asked me that question before.

really, i have thought about it many a time before but thats only normal. others never realize why this sucks. hell, they dont know it sucks at all. even if they do they ignore it

i mean really, its not that big a deal. but for someone of her stature to understand at lease a lil' bit that stuff like this can effect a person,

well, its a little reassuring a guess (:

i did not see a psychiatrist ><> pls forgive the vague-ness of this post but for reasons i cannot mention i cannot say what exactly it is that she asked me.

2008-02-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year (:

melaka was fun...

getting ang pau was also very the fun.

and of course not having to do ANY form of work was seriously fun.

playing with cute nieces ( i know her name! tzhi ying... i think. impossible to pronounce ) was like hell fun.

ok im running out of variations for fun. shoot me.

and eating ALOT of cookies that taste like ohmygod delicious was pure ecstasy.

i never really realized but cny is actually pretty cool (: im liking it. and normally i dont stay over during this time of year but but this year i did :P hehehe

and i ate like this super cendol thingi that had lots and lost of gula melaka. damn why did i not take picture ><>

ok..i was going to post up a picture.... but my picture-putting-button doesnt work -___-

till next time then (:

2008-02-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

today i went to 2 places. the first was yian huei's house (god i hope i spelt her name correctly) and then after i went to a small family reunion before cny (:

yian huei's house was honestly pretty chun. and and it was a bangalow and had like these super high ceilings with pretty lights that er... ok i dont know how to describe but they were cool la!

damn should have taken picture ):

anyway, the four of us went to the playground after that and it was soooooo wonderful cause i haven been to a decent playground in AGES.

and...

i played with the swing!! ^^

the picture should be like framed man i almost slipped off trying to get a decent photo.
me looking down cause yian huei is swinging higher than me :'(

me and aishah! my hair is messy cause of the wind ok -__-

i cant remember the last time i just lepak-ed at a friends house. it was great really (: i need more house-lepaking from now on.

so later right, i went to the family reunion thingi at some restaurant place that was decent enough la. food was nothing to shout about but it was fun seeing some old faces ^^

my nephew who's name i cannot spell ><> he normally loves the camera and is wayyyy cuter when he isnt hiding behind the chair.

my niece (: whos name i dont even know .i am not a bad aunt i am not a bad aunt. hey its not my fault ok shes only been around for about 6 months (:

the picture has no face because i was trying to pretend that i wasnt taking a picture cause people might think im some vain girl.

i wore red. cause people said red brings more ang pao. then why did i not receive anything tonight

-____-

anyway i had fun today (:

happy happy today.

Oh! and if u haven realized, my new resolution is to post more pictures on my blog! :D

2008-02-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

aite, i have been blogging for about a year now. and you would think i'd have an archive that'll blow your mind.

BUT i have currently....

77 posts.

like wth? i've been writing for a whole YEAR and i only managed to churn out posts seventy-seven times?!?!

ok so thats 77 divide 11 months, which equates to 7 posts a month, about 1.75 a week.
so on average i blog twice a week. which is actually quite alright.

problem is, i distinctly remember after a few months of blogging that i had around 50 or so posts, meaning my ability to blog has significantly reduced due to my lazyness

-___-

this is so not the fair...

2008-02-02T22:44:00.000+08:00

Eh eh... omg its been forever since i updated.

Anyway today was Kah hean's birthday (: went to palace of the golden horses and had chun food with good company. was very happy i decided to go. the only problem was most probably choosing a birthday present for a guy.

IT IS IMPOSSIBLE LAA -__-

but i got something simple in the end (: i really hope he likes it..

ah oh yea..pictures.. not that many cause i didnt bring my camera, had to depend on phone cam which isnt very wonderful but ah well,

me and cy in a wicked toilet :P me and cy in another totally wicked toilet ^^

wilbur doing some pose that he really likes for some reason @@

and of course, the birthday boy (: why do you have to look gay in my picture -__- what u were wearing was actually very the nice la..oh oh he was white like me (:

me! hahaha

oh ya, after the buffet i realized that if there was ever a mcd buffet, it would be TOTALLY awesome @@

i also realized that i need to get out of the house and i have no idea how. damn it ><>

2008-01-26T13:32:00.000+08:00

I always thought that i should be happy with what i have, grateful, appreciative. You know, like being thankful and not wanting more than i can chew. Cause everything you have can leave you at anytime and because happiness is a choice right?

So i was, choosing to be happy with what i have. And it was great being content. But then, time can change alot so after alot of thinking,

I think i deserve more. No i am not being greedy ok, im not talking about belongings and things, for that i have many. im not talking about special treatment or attention for that i have no desire. no, i do not want anything material.

Its just that sometimes, im sure im not alone, you think you could have done better, make better choices. so then you need'nt have to keep choosing to be happy when you actually are.

so it is so wrong that i feel this way?

2008-01-23T20:46:00.000+08:00

no tuition today (: thank god cause i haven even touched my bm homework.

still, being optimistic i am so very very happy. n omg did u hear heith ledger died!!! (ok fine damn random but it suddenly came to me after watching the Daily 10.)

so sudden and so sad ): i never really liked him but still....why are people dying of one by one -_-

and oh yes we must all support my schools latest campaign about sexually transmitted diseases! (awareness la)

because right, i arrange wan :P well not only me la my other 3 people n i are all working for it right now and and it must be successful! if not die die
basically its like we talk talk about how u will DIE then people wont have sex then tada! no more STD's :P

im kinda terrified of publicizing it cause i the point is really to go around saying sexsexsex and making it sound normal...

...i cant do that!

i am completely useless when it comes to talking. i mean really, i am totally unexperienced in the area concerned -___-

ok i realize this is a very stupid post but still! its been a week and i honestly have nothing interesting to talk about.

2008-01-14T17:27:00.000+08:00

now you tell me,

what is the point of copying a 500 WORD KARANGAN?

i mean, i dont have the slightest clue what the karangan is about and it is just so ridiculous to do one EVERY week. to write one, however horrible it may be, makes sense la. but why copy?

i therefore memberontak copying of any sort. hmph.

and then my hand will die i tell you. - -

next time when i have children i shall teach them to be ambidextrous so that when they copy stupid karangan's in school their hands wont die.

I am so thoughful ^^ hehehe

and then and then.... i will be voted mother of the year wahahahaha :D

2008-01-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

i am unhappy today

when i am unhappy, i eat
and so i ate and ate and ate

but i feel the same.hell i kinda still feel like eating

so i wrote and wrote and wrote
but other that my hand hurting, no difference

then i talked and talked and talked
but a phone call can only last so long

so screw this

i am going to sleep, cause its the only way to stop thinking.

i think todays the first day that i went to school and didnt want to come back.

2008-01-06T14:54:00.000+08:00

school started,

and omg why must you give me so much homework :( and scold me i was so nice la ok i did everything you asked for but dont know why never enough

but nevermind that, homeword and stupid people i can handle. what i cannot handle is the incessant drilling in my house - - why la must they drill every single day

this is what happens when parents dont know what to do with money, like in chiyee's house and soon to be shusim's place too. they tear the place down for the sake of some massive renovation which is pretty cool excluding the dust and the vacumming and the me having to help vacuum which is very not fun :( and honest to god that stupid vacuum does NOT WORK AT ALL. no matter how many times i go over the same place again and again.

omg i cannot take the constant banging..

.. someone make it stop @@

edit:

just realized im home alone because whole family went out to visit the little girl that was sick and still kinda is but is getting better :) anyway i couldnt go because stupid i started coughing in the morning :(

why la i dont even think im sick just a lil cold but still cant go :( cause you see, she has a low immune system thing thus cannot fight infection and stuff....

omg they should be having kfc now...without me :'(

2008-01-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

happy new year people :)

i normally dont care about new year but this time i made a big deal so that i can manage myself out of the house till after midnight hehehe

anyway...thank you thank you shusim cause without you i might have not been able to go :)

spent the whole day with with my current favourite person but i wont go into detail. what i can see is that when i watched AVP2 it was so disappointing i have hardly anything to say about it.

i mean, maybe i watched too may alien movies and predetor movies and alien versus predetor movies to appreatiate the goriness anymore. but thats all the movie was about- disgusting killing and blood flying around. AND i think the AVP people lost their touch cause not once did i jump from my seat or squeal or anything. - -

and the ending....well im not quite sure what happened cause the ending was so abrupt. but that might just be me. :)

went to the curve and the fireworks were pretty chun and terribly long. by the time i reached home it was 3am omg mum was like 'ur not going anywhere anymore'

but it wasnt my fault ok the traffic was like NOT MOVING :( one hour in the car and i could still see ikea

.......

anyway ill post up new year resolutions once i think of something....

oh yea have to buy school books cause school in 2 days omg ><>

2007-12-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

ok ok update: merry christmas people :)

and happy birthday to su ann, an old friend and a great person. :)

well anyway, on christmas eve i went to midvalley which is so the most wonderful place right now cause i bought spongebob monopoly which is so pretty and yellow!!!! laugh all you want but it is sooo cute la ok @@ the eyes on the box moves...

also! i bought my first eyeliner (i m so proud) which sadly i have no idea how to use and then and then i tried to wash it off and my whole face was glittery

....at lease glitter is pretty

oh yea and and i got to see guy in strips that i missed so the much ^^ oh i love strips walalala

but other that that noone gave me any presents :( i am so depressed now and present deprived. currently i have been promised a teddy bear so all hopes lay on one adorable, more than likely fluffy and lovely and hopefully very expensive teddy bear ^^

i am such an optimist.

2007-12-18T12:48:00.000+08:00

you take your time counting the minutes before you have to take the stand again and figure out how not to ruin it all.

but as many times as you try, it never gets any easier. the sudden rapid increase of your pulse followed by the sweaty palms and the occasional sttuter, all while butterflies race around your tummy with no mercy.

the feeling always the same and yet always new.

how many times until the mistake settles in and you stop repeating. how many times before you listen to the little voice inside and walk away. walk away without doubting or looking back. then you can smile and say that this is what i want.

no questions ask.

2007-12-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

i couldnt sleep last night. took a few hours of rolling around in bed before i finally slept off. i hate being awake :( you start thinking about all the bad stuff and its so not fun.

anyway i watched i am legend and and okla i admit i only watched it for will smith because he acts so the wonderful and i like seeing his face ^^

although the movie was pretty unrealistic at some parts i enjoyed it. even though had to watch it twice because i was rudely interupted the first time and at like the (maybe) climacs man :(

oh yeah and im at wordpress.com now. *yay* will move there as soon as some really nice person tells me how to move all my posts there and like use it in general :) cant wait to finally be able to have titles to my posts hehehe

2007-12-08T18:31:00.000+08:00

sometimes its the little things that get to me.

the fact that my people have to twist every single word i say or how nobody ever sees but judge anyway or how i can never find the remote or how my money mysteriously disappears or how i have to do things i really dont want to.

stuff that separately would have never consciously bug me cause i guess its all normal and something we all have to live with.

but lately all the little things have been nagging at me endlessly and there is nothing i can do.

yea, the fact that i have absolutely no control would probably be the cherry on the sundae. maybe its just me but todays just one of those days when you wake up drowning in your sorrows.

not wanting the world to see you. its so bloody crowded hell its like a freaking bottleneck here.

i just wanna get out :( someone faster come bring me go out

2007-12-05T02:17:00.000+08:00

How did you find me?
Where did you read my story?
Pulled from the papers
Desperate and hardened seeking a momentary fix

All I wanted to say
All I wanted to do
Is fall apart now
All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
It's all my fault now
A Tragedy I fear

mercy- one republic
how true, how true...

2007-11-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

it has dawned upon me that i am indeed a very gullible person - - one who accepts and gives in to everything, well almost everything. and even though it has yet to happen i dont want people stepping all over me as though i have no authority.

*hmph* i need to learn to make sure people get that i m bigger than you so listen to me and leave.

so my new resolution is to learn to say no :D

kinda sounds like the taknak advertisement but its ok ^^

not only say no to people la but to other stuff that i am not suppose to indulge myself in. like food and greys anotomy 3rd season and and omg the wonderfulness of sleeping and of course must learn say no to....some other thing ^^ hehe

anyway, so far the saying no thing isnt really working out because i was suppose to not eat KFC just now but i did and im not suppose to eat something else and i did and suppose to not do that other thing but i did

but! i assure you that one day i will master the art of rejecting so perfectly until ya'll amazed by my ability. yes, very very amazed :)

2007-11-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

i count down the minutes each time before we meet. and when we do he embraces me in his arms as i return the gesture, burying my face in his chest.

his delicate touch against my skin reminds me of why i am in his arms and noone elses. why i wouldnt want to anyway and why all his antics however unfavourible are tolerable and will remain as such even if i could possible get him to correct.

also, he is very very annoying

the way he somehow never seems to get hungry EVER, and how his hair is never always just right or how despite the enormous evidence to the contrary he actually is high maintainence and sadly unaffortable to me and how his knees are beyond repair. at times it gets to me but its part of the package, not to be averted

and i love the package ^^

2007-11-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

first of all i'd lik to wish shu sim happy 16th birthday :)

you have been a good friend these past few years.

__________

anyway....school ends in 2 days

omgomg cantwaitcantwait

BUT have to go school on saturday for primary school concert lik what the hell why do we have to take care of primary people = =

and somemore suppose to go to school sunday for some conference thingi for the interact club. 8.00am -5.30pm i think. luckily i cannot go walalala

so...for the holidays i can work in school. RM40 a day to do paperwork and maybe a few calls. good money i could make 200 a week easy.

but i dunno whether to do anot....somemore nothing in school to go see also :( come to think of it the whole school will be all internationals. bleh*

o yeah the band boys like girls, its so confusing! is it boys who like girls or boys that act like girls? someone tell me please.. = =

2007-11-05T11:35:00.000+08:00

this post was suppose to be a picture filled one of the recent renovation of my room but somthing else came up.
something that makes the disagreements of the colour of my room seem so insignificant.

i saw her maybe on wednesday and she was her usual bouncy jovial self, smiling and all reading her high school musical book, a present from a friend on her recent 9th birthday. her smile was always infectious and she always found a way to make me laugh.

yea she was annoying here and there but who could help it. its nice when you know theres someone that looks up to you, thinks of you more than older person. she even calls me her teacher sometimes when i teach her random stuff. helps brighten the day.

and now she lays in a hospital bed in the ICU finally in stable condition after being admitted last night.

the diagnosis has yet to be confirmed but she is suspected to have leukemia. for those of you who dont already know, its bone marrow cancer where there is an excess amount of white blood cells that attack your red blood cells i think. something like that.

now i await the clock to strike 12, before being allowed to visit her.

i hope shes ok.

2007-11-02T01:19:00.000+08:00

i need a picnic. complete with the picnic table and picnic basket with carefully arranged sandwiches and other assorted picnic-food for the day. and picnic people with their ever lasting smiles gleaming right and left.

then i could lie down on the grass and look at clouds and empty all thoughts that have been gnawing at me.
i really really need a picnic.

someone bring me go picnic please please :(

sometimes when i think of losing you somehow, it scares me beyond all measure of pain.

2007-10-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

it took me about an hour to answer all my emails n check frendster and all that shit i hav comfortably neglected over the week of raya holidays

and in that time i managed to plan out this really long blog post in my head that would have been really interesting to write. then i thought to myself, people cannot read this. so now here i am, sitting on the bed wondering what to do.

i need to organise all this crap in my head and the best place to do so would obviously be in my blog but i just cant. i cannot write down all the little things that have been bugging me, all the little insecurities and nonsense that goes about my daily life. cause when it comes down it when people get inside your head, they look at you in a different light.

and right now i really dont want to be noticed at all. i know this is retarded and all but i kinda sorta miss the days when i was a mere shadow in school, walking around minding my own business and the once in a while screw ups that come and go without anyone noticing.

so like duh the answer would be wordpress right since everyone is either already or going to use it. so maybe ill consider changing since i never really liked my current blogskin anyway. buttt, if i ever do use wordpress, nobody's getting the password ...walalalalaala

that kinda makes it a diary i guess..right?

ah whatever ill just try to write this without giving much away.

ok, how do you sum up notgoodenough into one word?

inadequate, perfect.

and that is how i feel. and it really does feel crappy sometimes.

and sometimes on the rarest of occasions i just lie down in bed and dont want to get up. i mean its like whats the point in doing 100 add maths questions AFTER the finals are over, running a site that NOONE visits, don the black uniform every morning and get all the wonderful marks in the world when it doesnt matter when you NEED it to.

when all efforts sum up to absolutely zero and there is NOTHING on god's green earth that can change that fact.

2007-10-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

isnt the holidays suppose to be fun-filled days and sleepless nights and all-you-can-eat day in day out?

well,this time around the holidays are getting boring, very boring. thus, in a sudden need for sappy-ness and cool medical-ness, i bought the first season of greys anatomy.

who knew it was only 9 episodes? cost around RM70 i think. bought it yesterday finished it this morning. once again i am devoid and bored.

nobody replying my sms somemore :(
oh no wonder sms wrong number - -

i swear i thought that was his number. great now memory gone also.

and oh yea i hate people who just walk in like they own the room, don't give you the respect you deserve and then start talking like they're running the bloody show

can show some respect to the person in front anot = = im there for a reason youknow

edit: i remember his number! wahaha got the 6 and the 3 mixed up :P

2007-10-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

oh my god
exams are over.

yipee *dance dance* hehe

physics okla but moral, was a totally different story. bloody hell i could throw the paper out the window and it wont make a difference. its tuesday god damn it how the hell is anyone suppose to concentrate you tell me = =

andddddddd adzraai, the guy who said he was going to give up on sejarah and never again pick up the text book unlike the rest of us who actually studied the test, got HIGHEST, yes tertinggi untuk matapelajaran sejarah

*pause*

no words can describe how rediculus this it

but but but on a lighter note, add maths marks are ok i think ^^

_______

alright, enough about exams, i shall recite

If I say who I know, it just goes to show

You need me less than I need you

Take it from me

We dont give sympathy

You can trust me trust nobody

But I said you and me

We dont have honesty

The things we dont want to speak

Ill try to get out but I never will

The fray-trust me

walalala the meltingness ^^

2007-10-06T13:22:00.000+08:00

im in over my head
biten off more than i can chew

and now i have officially screwed my sejarah, maths, chemistry

god how i screwed chem

i think i terpesong one bm novel question too and im certainly gonna screw physics tomorow. not to mention math2 prepared by that maniacal teacher from damansara with absolutely no mercy for us students who are going to fail.

and ohmygod 7 bidang's of moral on tuesday T.T

and pmr ended. that is so unfair!

ANYWAY drifting away from the topic,

i wanna go penang.

i was'nt sure whether i should go at first but now i am without choice. i have to go and clean up the mess that i have partially caused and talk to people that i have possibly influenced. i mean for gods sake is it so hard for people to keep a secret? why is it when i say dont tell DONT TELL you go call and then tell people = =

now see so the mafan-ing me i have to go 400km away and hopefully build back what was once a clean relationaship between all peoples.

i am so tired of people who cant be trusted. why laaaaaaaa

finally a silver lining, my guitar teacher just called n canceled class
WALALALA i havent touched the guitar since god knows when. not my fault ok i had exams ^^

now i have the deepest desire to talk to someone. and lose weight. so im going to go call someone maybe and NOT eat lunch. i wonder how long that'll last.

ok then bye bye ^^

2007-09-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

i havent touched the computer in a very long time which explains the lack of blogging

I also got a new computer which is kinda pretty i suppose ^^ its red and everything n comes with this really cool bag thats peach-y and pink. also the webcam is pretty cool and has this detection tool thingy where you can put on then if something moves in front of it it will start recording n email it to you :)

its kinda shocking of all people they choose me to head YJC (young journalist club) because it is clearly obvious that i m the lease capable and far from being the most willing. and after briefing from abi, i am absolutely TERRIFIED. theres so much to be done and alot of people to not piss off. plus im supposedly in charge of lime light AND the yearbook. but has anyone actually seen the yearbook?

who the hell knew datin read limelight :S

ANYWAY in a sudden burst of energy i decided to blog

and now shang chuen is calling me muslim again = =

note new resolution, i shall spell all my words properly, meaning all the 'g's are present and no more 'n' and 'ad' from now on T.T

2007-09-10T21:35:00.000+08:00

i like pealing prawns and eating fried garlic

and have officially mastered the technique of ironing in such a way that the clothes do not look ironed BUT BUT BUT they do NOT, i repeat they do not look crumpled

^^v

seeeee im not completely useless

2007-09-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

wat shalani thought she knew below the age of 12

malaysia, penang and kl were 3 diff islands. coz penang was the only state i knew back then ^^
after i found out tat penang was part of msia, i thought u were in penang after reaching these hills tat hav a sign 'penang *arrow*' on it. about 3 hours from penang. u can still see the twin towers

exams we had were just pieces of paper and and in std1 u get to colour the pictures ^^

if u ate egg york u would get heart attacks, n if u eat alot of skin u would get cancer. which isnt really wrong rite?

alice in wonderland is the worse show EVER. one girl walking around ALONE with a CRAZY cat following her was not my idea of a fairytale. i use to cry when it was on i think.

the word 'idiot' was sooooo vulgar i scolded my grandad when he used it. i was seven.

manila card was from manila,Philippines.. saktia i remember u were the one who told me bout manila card ^^

if u dug far enough, u'll reach china!! :D

sex was for drug addicts and horny ppl. in std4 when pn.winnie explained how sex = babies i relinquished the thought of how my parents could engage in such a despicable act..hehe

big mac was my favourite burger before i saw the 100% beef tag at the side of the box = =

i once wondered wat would happen if a t-rex came to town. i was very very afraid

linkin park was ew

ok i know this doesnt count but my sister thought disney land n disney world were in msia

tats all i can think of now
and its late so nightnight everyone :)

note: i hate ants. they should all go to hell. period. = =

2007-08-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

the ungrateful girl who apparently has been influenced by her 'terrible terrible' friends, got a lecture today

and the agreement that is supposedly going to solve my recent behavior would be

for me not to use my phone after eleven p.m from monday to thursday

LIKE HELL IM GOING TO LISTEN

how the hell is this suppose to stop me from rebelling (who cares whether its a real word or not im pissed = =)

indifferent is how i feel right now.

but fine, ill be a good girl and just shut up and nod and listen to every crappy rule.

7 weeks

just give me 7 weeks

ill be the best god dam daughter and ill study my ass off for finals and then there cannot be ANY reason for you to keep me at home.

seven weeks
but worth the wait

2007-08-25T18:49:00.000+08:00

well, i was going to post about my birthday and a dream about nasi lemak a few days ago but something else caught my attention n i decided agaisnt it.

after much thought i have analysed n evaluated two different types of freinds. first is the type thats just really really nice and helpful and cares about everything. and theres the other that honestly doesnt give a shit if you died in a ditch somewhere.

the second first, sad to say that people change and that my once good friend has left to be replaced by someone i dont know anymore. i doubt anyone knows her now. its so depressing that the LAST person u expect to change, changes so drastically beyond everyones belief.

whats even more frustrating is how the change was caused by the arrival of a sinificant other. n how we all kinda have a thing with him now, sadly.

i know im not alone when i say this but i miss my frend. she hardly talks to any of us anymore and i really dont think shes planning to any time soon.

i mean wont anyone get angry if you're head over heals over your bf until u can miss your friend's birthday? n i mean dont insult me la give some crappy reason somemore. haih

i just want my friend back :(

buttttt sometimes if your lucky enough u find a good friend ^^ apart from chi yee, yes i have to credit you if not you angry then masalah, i was surprised to find a good friend.

a friend that helps you even though they might not benefit. no wait, they wont benefit, they waste their time to help n they know it but they DONT CARE. and thats what i admire. how i know you for only a short time but you are willing to help me when i needed it. no questions asked.

thank you alot :) i wont forget.

n yea sometime in the past i may have taken the friendship for granted but no more ^^ because i dam good learn from mistake dont wan to lose a good friend ma.

best part is were not even that close and i can write bout how wonderful he is.

2007-08-17T20:18:00.000+08:00

dont u just hate it when the bad guy is nice.

all u wanna do is set the bloody person on fire but their just so delightfully wonderful u know u cant get away with it.

so fine i cant do anything about this now.

but you took alot from me. n i was dumb enough not to realize it at the time. i doubt u realized it until now. but theres no way ur getting this.

for once. this is MINE and your god dam hands are not getting anywhere near it.

2007-08-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

hey hey i officially declare tis blog alive once again :D

i damn good ok study lik hell for exams. the only reason im blogging now is bcoz theres math n eng tomorrow hehe n that i m extremely depressed n this is lik pemulihan. but that aside, pics of commencement

commencements was suppose to be a post by itself but to hell with it la i dam lazy now = =

actually got one more blacknwhite pic but cannot see properly so no need la ^^im not sure why adzraai is biting his candle

-outside waiting to walk in. the people wax-ed my hp n my damn blazer ok = =

me looking at the prize i got. which turned out not to be mine coz they sent in my name late n therefore pen didnt arrive yet = =

fine fine so i dont hav any pics of the actual ceremony but its ok..:) overall everything was fun walked around alot hehe

also.....next week is holidays n im hesitant whether or not to celebrate the bday. i doubt ill do anything interesting lik i planned earlier in the year. :( maybe just go out for a movie then belanja makan to some ppl.

n i dont really want anything...

just wanna be happy this year...n maybe a big hug wahahaha

n now i m so the depressed = = SIGH n if i feel lik it ill say why next week

but for now...*depression*

i say i dun wan means dun wan la. hell no im not gonna compromise.

you see i damn rajin study moral okkk. n thats my sisters pencil in my hair because i was so the lazy to get a rubberband ^^

2007-08-08T00:40:00.000+08:00

OMG

wat happened to me T.T

i use to b so good at looking at u right in the eye and nod convincingly while tapping away at my phone

alas the gift is gone. seriously i m in need of more sms-ing practice

i therefore declare the last RM6.35 in my phone to improve my sms-ing ability n shall not rest until this sole purpose is fulfilled.

hehe ^^

o yea i got my phone bak! my dad wasnt exactly happy when it costed him 450 bucks but i m absolutely delighted. walalala

n THANK GOD everything was in place when i got the phone. phew :)

o yea.. after readin suann's blog, i realized i hav not taken the time to watch ALOT of movies. lik hello i m still spider man3 deprived (i din watch the movie coz i knew it would suck but still its tat kinda must-see thing) n harry potter deprived AND i wanna watch stomp the yard :(

okok fine not tat many.. but tats not all ok! i just cant remember now n as u can tell im kinda rushing tis post ^^ hehe prize giving tomoro

2007-08-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

hello ^^

for the past few months i took a bunch of pics wif my phone wif the purpose of putting them up on my blog,

but knowing how incredibly lazy i m n bersikap tak kisah, i hav neglected to do so. hehehe thus, i hav a quite large amount of pics (for mela) in my phone

actually rite, i wanted to do this for a really long time but my memory card adapter comfortably hid itself somewhere in my room.

i found it on my table. hehe

so for this post i m goin to empty out my pics

oh yea, before i forget. i did the most ridiculus thing on planet earth. lik OMG i dropped my oh
so wonderful lee hom w850i hp in the god dam toilet

= =

LIK OMG I WANTED TO TAKE PICS THIS FRI (socials) N SUN (cy bday)

n oh yea! i passed probation......nnnnn im treasurer ^^ hehehe i can wear the uniform
i gotta make it a note to find out wat the treasurer does

ANYWAY, i really shud b studying pengaruh agama hindu buddha or wat ever the hell so ill just go rite to the pics.

... enjoy ^^

no 1.
why do i hav this = =

no 2.

i know i look stupid but i hav no braces. bronze expedition*

no 3.

er..dry kitchen

no 4.

rainbow in my room ^^

no 5.

a pretty looking cup

no 6.

one day when i felt very greedy in the chicken rice shop.

no 7.

a blur pic of a lady bird i made (left) n one i bought (right) for RM1.50

no 8.

a kryptonite coloured honey dew juice tat was surprisingly nice

no 9.
me examining the kryptonite juice n the little black stuff inside were nice

no 10.

some painting in some hotel tat i forgot i went to

no 11.

me n form 3's on choral speakin competition day.

no 12.

me n sis in tis really expensive buffet thingi. were in the toilet btw

so tats it i guess ^^ actually got alooooot more.

all for another day.

kk bak to islam chapters for me

bye bye

2007-07-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

my com expired. i dunno how the hell its possibly but i cannot gain access to the stupid computer.

i have lost all desire to blog

will update in a while with pics

2007-07-13T00:02:00.001+08:00

a few days bak i saw an old freind. we werent close or anything. just the occasional hello or goodbye followed by a quick smile. nevertheless it was nice to see a familiar face. i was in the car as he walked pass behind. he looked much older, since it has been 4 years since i've seen him but

he looked good, taller and all. haha. he was always the nice guy too. i turned to say hi. just then, i realized that even after all the years in primary school together he might not even remember my name. no idea who the hell was wavin at him. so i put my hand down and sat bak in my chair.

dumbfounded i just kept thinkinng how sad it is that i lost alot of friendships on the way. n may
hav no chance to change that fact.

still, i wont forget all these people. although i hav made no difference in their lives, they have touched mine, n i will forever remain a friend

n for the old frend i saw, i wish u all the best. ^^ god knows wat form 4's lik

2007-07-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

i think i drafted 6 posts. i cant make up my mind wat to write about = =

so ill go with this thought

is it wrong to want more?

i know im not a happy person. i mean i generally appreciate everything i hav n i know i hav it better than alot of people.

i try to but i know im not truly happy. with myself, with my life. with practically everything. im just not genuinely contented with the way things are right now.

where do u draw the line between wat makes sense and wats just plain greedy? if im not good enough, i try to b better. but where do i stop and say, 'ok, tats all i need right now'. its just so frustrating.

eg, i wanna go out right, n if u know me, u know theres a very small chance of tat happening. when i complain, im labeled as ungrateful. but seriously, im NOT ok. i know my parents let me do alot of stuff at home. i wan more freedom, n for tat m i greedy?

lately stuff has been going a little better i guess. but i still cant help feeling tat everytime something good happens, something else comes out short, or just not right, not how i planned it. sometimes u just get a feeling when somethings just not right, right?

i cant remember the last i was really really truly wholly pleased.

im afraid of losing the people i love; friends and family. i dont want things to get worse, i dont want to b distant...
but then again i may hav already pushed some people away.

2007-07-08T00:27:00.001+08:00

my saturday was kinda full. its 12.30 now but i m thoroughly exhausted.

still, its fun. makes me feel more alive somehow.

anyway i went school for a while, had fun ^^ mingling. then went leisure mall from 11.30 to about 2.30? walking alone in my count me in t-shirt. yes, i got a few glances. i was suppose to watch a movie at 11 but... some stuff happened n i couldn't n i really dun wanna talk about it

its just frustrating tat sometimes u cant rely on some people.

well, i met chen yee n pang for a while, then their pacy people came n i went to popular where i read a really interesting book on fast food :D:D then headed to starbucks 4 wonderful wonderful doughnut.

im really shortenin everything i did bcoz it is getting boring

anyway, cy arrived n we campaigned in our shirts for a while before feeling really ridiculous. she changed :)

we met up wif shannon in popular n ran around abit. cher was in cc i think.
then met khung fwu [who can sew- lik omg]
bernard,
shaun-however u spell it,
n the talkative eugene.
shu sim n lian yan came later.

the crowd at the theater was crazy! it was lik people never saw a movie before or something. they were practically over flowing the place = =

so, anyway

transfomers was...

AWESOME

WAHAHA..hehe i know i know i dam lame ok ^^

after tat walked around abit before going kopitiam for mums bday

7.7.07.....yea chun bday ^^

it was very very boring there, really n i was faling asleep everywhere. went bak home n had to entertain tis little girl for a while.

n now im doin tis

i m gonna go bath now n SLEEP

....only to wake up early tomoro...sigh

not in a particularly good mood. people suck sometimes. especially nice people :(

2007-07-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

people judge too harshly. people who think they know but have no idea.

1. sometimes it sucks to b me, it sucks to hav my skin. yes, people judge u based on ur race. how surprising is tat = =

is it soooo impossible to believe tat HE starts everything. tat he does all the omg stuff. must I always b the one tat gets the finger pointing? why the hell is it sooo hard for people to understand tat i wan a FREND = = i dont lik him. get it anot??

guys lik tat, only lik a certain shade of skin. im not stupid, i get it.

__

2. one reason y im pissed is how some people dont talk to me or even try to engage in conversation BUT made up their mind on wat i m. period.

well, wake up. people CHANGE ok? they dont stay the same. 6 months is a long time n no i dun tell u everything coz bloody hell its my life n its not lik u giv a dam anyway rite? AND u dun tell me everything now do u? so y shud i do the same.

i know ur not a bad person. just dun potray people if u dont know wat ur talking about.
it just plain stupid n annoying

im not even bloggin properly. god knows my grammer is shit = =

how nice would it b to name names.. but alas i aint tat evil. still, some of u most likely already know.

2007-07-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

u wanna know, okay, ill tell u y

if i was hungry, would u get me my favourite food?

if i stayed up, would u talk to me all night?

if i did something wrong, would u stand by me unconditionally?

if i wanted the biggest toy at the fair, would u win it for me?
ok i know theres no fairs here, but u get the point

if i was sitting alone, would u accompany me the whole way?

if i wanted to b left alone, would u still persist to sit beside me?

if i were sick, would u worry?

if i were sad, would u b sad too?

if i needed a shoulder to cry on, would u be there?

no. u wouldnt
n tats y u dont love me

n y i can never love u

2007-07-01T23:50:00.001+08:00

this is a sign that i m eating too much

i hav an ulcer..
..on the under side of my tongue

oh.my.god = =

the pain... the throbbing pain. i hate ulcers. n yesterday i ate sooo much n the back right side of my jaw was in SERIOUS pain = = but i ate anyway ^^ hehe

i mean who can resist the one and only four ringgit sugar-covered starbucks doughnut thats so warm n fluffy u just wanna swallow it whole...ahhhh so satisfying

2007-07-01T00:11:00.000+08:00

tis post is wholly therapeutical
i hav no intention to actually do all the things written down. note the constant usage of would...
im just tired n i feel lik rambling about things tat sound nice n plus, i dun mind spending everyday lik it ^^

if i were to walk aimlessly in the pouring rain, u would come with an umbrella n a smile. offering wat i cannot refuse.

u would walk me home, holding my hand and never letting go.

u would stay until i felt okay, n we would talk about all the insignificant things tat pass us by. make me laugh n all the problems would just fade away.

when we sleep, ill wear ur oh so comfortable baggy shirt n u would play with my hair.

if i were cold u would hold me in your warm embrace. n i would snuggle against your chest n hear your heart beat softly in my ear.

I'd wake up earlier n watch u sleep. how the sheets outline your body as u breathe. how even as u sleep, u remind me of all things good.

n when u would wake up, i would smile.

kiss u soft n slow. n hope tat tat moment would last forever.

2007-06-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

i wanna rest my head on my fluffy pillow n never wake up. stare at my poster-covered walls with meloncholy songs banging in my ear at full volume.

lights off, the only thing seen are the shadows of the tree outside creeping in from my window. when the music's off, its quiet, apart from the muffled voices of cnn spokesmen from daddys room. the smell of that particular perfume still lingering in the air.

my icy cold toes are wrapped in my blanket, but i still feel warm. i run my fingers down the side of my wooden bed. i run it through my tangled hair. everythings so placid, just the way i lik it.

eyes almost closed as i fumble to find the source of the ringing.

i find my phone, n a familiar number.

i cant help but smile :)

if only u were here beside me now.

then everything would be perfect.

2007-06-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

ok. my food consumption today

11.00- i greedy-gutly gobbled up all my fried rice within 10 minutes after probate meeting. which kinda made me choke half the time, u see i had no water. n i feel kinda bad coz chi yee was just sitting there staring into space. hehe sorry chi yee :)

1.30- believe it or not i was still hungry. so i managed to cram down 2 dim sum [6 pieces] which was surprisingly filling. stupid chen yee stared at me lik i was some kinda eating machine thingi = =

4...something - i was hungry again :D so ate rice n fish n other.. side dishes.

8....something? - mum came home n sis all went eat. n everyone knows food is tastier wif company. so i joyfully swallowed everything i ate at 4 all over again :D:D

10.30 ish- i love my father. he brought bak nasi lemak on the way home from singapore. wahaha

n i love my mother, who did not eat her share. which can only mean that i can! WAHAHA n eating nasi lemak in one hand, where there was no table, with a spoon in the dark while msn-ing is NOT easy. but it was.. fun ^^

n i think i rather prefer those nasi lemak's tat come in small packages with great sambal tat is lik 50% of the whole thing compared to the modern-ized nasi lemak with chicken and stuff.

dun get me wrong the chicken is good :) just the other one is more.. nasi lemak-ish

i know la i dam wat...

anyway... who said im not fat? this is proof ppl, hard evidence.

total:

3 servings of rice
2 nasi lemaks
2 dim sum wahaha

wat para ate:

fish

such self control... @@ dam u la para. cacat...

2007-06-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

a few days ago, a thought occured to me of how i hav lost so much and gained so little.. how at the time it didnt seem lik such a big deal.

heed the lessons of failure right? maybe for everything else. but for this, i would give alot to go bak n tell myself to THINK.

anyway, wats done is done. all i can do now is sit n talk shit.

so, in a nostalgic mood i thought about the bittersweet moments in life tat i will forever cherish. moments where time was in a stand still and everything was picture perfect. moments which will most probably never come by again.

but im grateful tat at lease once, i felt....wanted. maybe even needed. at lease i knew tat me was important and tat me had a reason to be. not just the class monitor or the probate or the stupid good girl.

tat me was me for reasons more than three.

to not be forgotten :) n never forget. how much i miss...

o yea
i currently hav an obsession with mushrooms. = =

2007-06-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

some people hav the best timing

but some hav the worse... u just had to b this one = =

omg omg omg

why why why why why why why

why do u break the pieces, wait till i pick them up

before u break them again... :(

ok maybe u dont do it intentionally but still, i was over the whole over-eager anticipation for something that i knew wasnt going to happen

and

after the bloody roller coaster of emotions u sent me through. i hav NO IDEA where i am, wat im suppose to say. seriously... wat m i going to say???

big girls dont cry is on the radio. so ill suck it in now. ill shut up. do nothing. play along to watever the hell ur planning. but trust me it wont be the same. i wont giv u the satisfaction and the pleasure of triumph.

i know ur not some evil incarnation of satan or something. but how do u think i feel?

sigh. the doughnut im eating isnt as sweet as it shud b.

today. ur not too.

2007-06-08T00:13:00.000+08:00

went penang on sunday by bus. me n sis only hahahahahaha dam fun :D

they showed 3 movies in the duration of the trip; God of cookery [some stupid chinese movie = =] , some black n white beatles movie which was surprisingly not bad and a movie called G.O.D. lik wat...the ....hell

stupid, yes i know.

anyway in the bus it was raining and the raindrops did this really cool dance thingi on the window. the journey was bumpy so they moved in a long unbroken stair pattern instead of the regular vertical thing. i guess the long unbrokenness is coz of tat whole high cohesion capability of water. dam bio.

ANYWAY it was really pretty n for some reason i was just staring at it for a really really long time.

then my sis suddenly turned and was like 'they look lik worms.......DIS-GUS-TING'

we broke into laughter. my sis has tis rediculus ability to make me laugh at any time and place, which is y i love her oh so much ^^

well, i went to penang for my 2 lovely cousins, arv n ash. no need their full name la. :P

omg...i just realized i hav no pics of them o.o haiyo...nvm la

so after 2 nights in penang, me, sis, 2 cousins n their parents packed our bags for Swiss Garden Golf n Spa Resort in lumut, perak. the place was really really preeeeeeeety

hehe the best part was the beach was EMPTY n we sooo DOMINATED the whole place screaming n shouting with the waves. erm, there was tis sign tat said there were jellyfish around so we werent really keen to go far :D

instead we childishly made tis really cool sand castle thingi ^^

it was kinda cute. there wasnt any walls but there were sea shells n tis middle thingi tat looks lik angkor wat. wahahahahaa :D i think i hav a pic. hmm

hehe...rocks n tire ^^ wahaha

tis bridge thingi was really pwetty *_* from right, sis, small couz ash, n yours truly.

o yea... my couz sis hates the camera = = so no shots of her..

n b4 i forget....i watched BLADES OF GLORY

WAHAHAHA :D:D:D

2007-06-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

tired. but happy ^^ im happy today

shit never goes the way u plan it to. but today, luckily it wasnt tat bad. kinda nice. fun. its fun walking around aimlessly talking shit without a care in the world ^^

shrek 3 was nice

potc 3 was nice

I WAN BLADES OF GLORY!!!

wahaha, sis watched. said it was funny :( yerrrr i wan

omg random post. the angry bit comes later la. lazy now

point is...im happy

im happy today even with u there

2007-05-29T19:04:00.001+08:00

wow. fourth post today. im on a roll :) wahaha

anyway. i tried using youtube to post the choral speaking comp rite. so, the freaking thing din work = = lik wth!

anyway i used immem instead ^^ n i think it works.

well, the choral speaking comp was in alamanda, the first ever private school nationals for this choral speaking n.....*drum roll* we got second place = =

like wattt the heccckkkkkkk laaaaaaaa.

i mean we practiced soooo long n honestly we all thought we deserved tat big shiny trophy :(

gold went to jusco ppl. no offence. i din see their performance so i cant really say much or start insulting.....we got the tiny pathetic excuse for a trophy instead

haih. well, anyway the medal is pretty la ^^ the cert aint tat bad too. purple for some reason.

well, here's us... try to look for me ^^

hey...i tried to make it fit la ok = = not my fault its cacated..

2007-05-29T17:50:00.000+08:00

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)

Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm.
Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all menYou are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

2007-05-29T01:00:00.001+08:00

update:

i just realized i found tis really really pretty colour thing :D:D

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wahaha...green, yellow N orange :D:D:D so pwetty ^^

2007-05-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

no more exams, no more studying.

tis whole 2 weeks while cracking my head i was thinking of all the things i would do once tis hell hole was done wif. BUT now tat the bloody shit is over, i find myself staring up at the ceiling. phone in one hand, the remote in the other. i have nothin to do.

all the movies watched, all the errands done.

its boring. but i won complain. not after math2

after tat paper, i realized tat i will fail my first subject in my secondary life (a major sub anyway) n even my ppl who disagree tat i will fail anything else, hav all come to terms with the utter disaster which was our math 2

already at the end of the day n although i told myself ill stick with it until the final minute. i gave up n handed in that stupid piece of paper tat will give me my first ever non-A for maths in my LIFE. thank u, bugger of a teacher in damansara.

n yes, i did indeed die for chem, moral, sej, bio, phy n bm. but everything fades in comparison with maths. stupid, i know how it sounds. hell everybody will agree with me when i say tat ADD MATHS WAS EASIER. heck, i got an 84 n TAT was BAD.

n after allllll tat shit over the past 2 weeks.

all i wanted was me time. time for nothing but me, myself n i.

now i hav all the time in the world. then u came.

spur of the moment:

wat do u do when all common sense n logic told u one thing. one thing tat u hav come to terms with. then, suddenly, he changes the rules of the game. says n does things against the game plan.

u confused me n at times, yea, u were pretty freaking scary. then the thought of something different occured. the thought tat maybe, just maybe

u were different

kinda freaky, but i was happy. happy tat maybe life could surprise u in a GOOD way. happy tat maybe tis was tat break i needed from all the hassle n shit.

n then u had to do it.

it had to be one of those guy things. one of those things u say but dun really mean. wat do i say? wat do i do?

for now, ill pretend. pretend tat im ur frend although i know i wan so much more.

great.

well, at lease now i hav something to fill all tat 'me' time with.

2007-05-14T18:59:00.000+08:00

no updates for 2 weeks. having tests n hav to study :) when i do come bak though ill try to post the choral speaking competition for yall ^^ im so good rite?

2007-05-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

Did not realize it was wednesday already. haih, next week exam :( screwed for chem, phy, BIO, ADD MATH, [note the emphasis on add maths] MORAL, SEJ n believe it or not, math = = bm goes without saying.

no way im gonna be optimistic. im going to fail. F. A. I. L. no more number 1 :(

next, im going to say something that many or all of you are not going to agree on. i actually partially agree with dr rizal bout the canteen food. i know yall r gonna trample me tomolo

yes, the food is expensive which is unacceptable. n replacing our glorious food was not a wise move. but still, u hav to pay some credit to dr rizal for his effort rite? i mean honestly, the food is healthier and at the rate we WERE going, we would have all died from cardiac arrest at age 21 = =

the whole extra variety thing though, is a pile of crap la. we had a wide menu before. its just that at lease now we have a healthier lifestyle, well as healthy as it can possibly get. but for those who bring food from home, im all for u. ok, now i sound very the contradictive of myself. k i better stop

the point is that the food is still overpriced n the canteen givs u an overall uncomfortable feel, yes. but lets give them a chance ok? ^^ they are here to stay whether we lik it or not.

n before i forget. probation sucks. BIG TIME

2007-05-06T18:41:00.000+08:00

i've been angry lately. DUH = =. still, is it just me or is anger-filled, sorrowful posts easier to write? ahh, well

so as promised, here is a happy post ^^

err. the only thing i can think about is how my guitar teacher told me i look thin. WAHAHA dam happy :) even though i ate kfc lik yesterday. screw my diet ^^ ate 3 pieces, wanted another but had to save for study-skills sis :(

about my diet. its not working = = everywhere i go, theres carbs carbs n more carbs = = so unfair! i cant deny my eternal love with rice @@ n chicken of course.

i even tried exercising tat day. burned 200 calories ^^ but i guess it doesnt matter since i ate a ramli burger before tat which is over 1000 calories = =. thank u, overpriced-zerotaste-unorganised stupid new canteen management.

anddd i got accepted as probate. last year i would have been happy but rite now i cant make up my mind. kinda weird, the only reason im doing this is for the cert. u do get a cert rite? i dont feel like a probate. doubt ill ever feel like one.

but the plus side is sher min is my senior! ^^ yea, go cher.

hehe, i still din take my chem test. which reminds me tat: choral speaking finals next week! 12th at alamanda....i mean we practiced alot but im afraid the other schools are gonna kick our ass. so i know u won but for those who can, come on sat n support ur school yea? ^^

ok fine, so this post wasnt exactly happy-filled. ill try to be less random in future

2007-05-04T00:17:00.000+08:00

she tells me i will grow up unhappy. to hate everything and everyone around me. i will grow up bitter and angry, ungrateful for what i have.

she tells me i disregard my family. i care only for my friends. always putting them before my own dam blood. she tells me i make them unhappy, i ruin their days. she says once i have children of my own, will i understand, n taste my own medicine. till then i remain the same.

im a burden. a heavy heavy burden.

she doesnt know, i understand. she has no idea what i go through. how much i try. it doesnt matter. life finds a way to bring you down, even when you're at your high. sure at one time i didnt care but honestly right now it doesnt matter.

it doesnt matter how much i try. how much i've changed or at least tried to. i was and always will be tat rebel. the black sheep. ill never be good enough.

once their mind is made up, you dont get to make a second first impression.

sorry mum, i tried.

2007-05-02T17:46:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i want to cry so bad, but i dont have a shoulder to lean on to. no one to talk to, to comfort, to share, to make me feel like im the special someone in his world even if im having a crummy day.

no one who gives a dam.

i dun expect to fly first class. i know im not the prettiest, the smartest or the richest from the bunch. my lifes coach. [quote 1 3 hill]

but all i want is for someone to want me back, is tat so much to ask?

heck i always wanted way too much anyway.

i envy those who hav but dont cherish. for all of you out there who has someone. hold on tight. you dont know how god dam lucky ya'll are.

2007-04-30T09:31:00.000+08:00

after 2 weeks of waking up early everyday [ yes, even sunday for piano ] i FINALLY hav a day of rest. n it just so happens tat today i CANNOT SLEEP. haih woke up at 8 = = the irony........

im goin out to jusco in an hour so ill rush tis post :) look after u-the fray is on the radio ^^

ok, i recently made an additional 6 posters on my wall i think. which adds up to about 57 [ im lazy to double check ]
n tis is my sis's wall. seeeeee mines bigger n nicer ^^ i guess she gets credit for actually lookin for the articles n putting them up unlike me.

i dunno whether u can see it but most of the articles are on [drum roll] christiano ronaldo. no surprise there :) die hard manu fan. she has much much more but ran out of wall space...waahaha

2007-04-24T20:33:00.000+08:00

trust. a thing tat i no longer hav for u. for anyone .

once upon a time. i trusted u, i told u everything. every last detail of my life. u know i did. u expect me to spill it all but ur all hush-hush. u dun trust me... n i hav tried time n time again to gain it. but as hard as i try, u dun budge. so

fine

walking today u hav taught me tat, however well i think i know someone, they tend to surprise u in the worse ways. u were never there, u never will b. thank u, at lease now i know i can no longer gain anything from being your frend.

2007-04-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

k, so i went to kl hilton late to pick up sis from her chocolate buffet where i found most of her frends brought their SISTERS along = = n there was a choc fountain n everythin! so envious now...but i guess it would hav been a waste since i cant eat much choc wifout throwin up n the buffet is 50 freakin bucks per-head...

the choc is so pwetty o.o...

the fountain dam fountain-y laa...saw ppl dipping....dam

well, i dunno y but they had choc satay...:S:S:S

err...there wasnt any other nice pics of chocolate so i took this 4 fun :D

seeee...i told u i would put a pic of me ^^ well, u cant see my braces. kinda the point :)

2007-04-20T20:41:00.001+08:00

2007-04-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

i just heard tis old song on the radio. the lyrics are interesting. meaningful? wat do u think :)

somewhere in the song he says deep fried chicken...reminds me of how i once was able to eat ><

Drops of Jupiter - Train

the lyrics:

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong

Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

2007-04-20T19:11:00.000+08:00

i really reallly shud b doin my hw now. but but...im just so god dam lazy = = i mean, who wans to do add maths n a freakin 500 word karangan. + i gotta go skool tomoro 4 costume arrrrggggghhhhhh. dam tired la, was looking forward to a day of rest. oh well,

today was boring. kinda screwed 4 chem. needa take it next week. shit, no way im gonna study. not my fault ok. i dun hav time. i dun hav time to practice piano, totally ignored my hw n a sej test on monday does not help. i know everyone said the chem test was hard. but i m NOT studying chem. hell no

well, today i went to school n eat rice wif gravy. yes, tats it. chewing is impossible, the pain is inevitable. food goes in my mouth, moves around abit. then swallow. not very tasty. but hey, i still gotta eat. 4 those who hav been through wat im goin through rite now, u know wat im talkin bout. [high 5] it seems tat everyone is getting braces now...why??? i mean i hate the feeling of metal in my mouth. its sooo bloody uncomfortable. haih... i cant imagine having this feeling 4 the next few YEARSSSS :(:(:(:( everyone keeps saying 'hey at lease ull hav perfect teeth' well, i was perfectly happy b4.

o! for dinner i had egg, fish n rice sumerged in soup :) it doesnt sound lik much but it was surprisingly nice ^^ i mean, vegetables are in no way possible to eat.

im also very very jealous wif my sis coz tomoro she is goin 4 a CHOC buffet...... i mean seriously! she din even ask me to go :( [not lik i could hav eaten anything, but still its the thought tat counts rite?] shes goin wif her frends which reminds me tat i haven been out in a long long time.

so ppl, lets go somewhere :)

gtg now, noone on9. i guess i could just sulk in front of the tv or hp till my conscience kicks in n i decide to do hw :)

bye

2007-04-19T19:35:00.001+08:00

hey...i hav been really really really lazy lately :D not my fault la ok... tis whole week bz wif 'costume' then fri + sat went 4 expedition...sunday was just really lazy la...^^ the thing im not gonna do is apologize....coz i dun get the point. its not lik ppl wait endlessly 4 ur posts n without them they die rite = =...but if theres anyone out theres who does ^^ i love u

im kinda pissed now coz theres somethin wrong wif the bluetooth connection so i can send the pics :( ill do it some other time i guess... well...ill start wif the expedition ^^

friday was tiring. the trip there was long as i had hoped 4 ^^ but we couldnt choose wat bus we wanted to sit in :( dam unfair la. anyway after reaching we did some stuff [i aint gonna elaborate coz its alot to talk about ^^] anyway all in all i had a fun time, great time actually :) i won tell u y...hehe. sat was good too. the trip bak was kinda upsetting, hoped 4 sth better. i din expect i would wan the expedition to last longer....no regrets ^^

conclusion: expedition = fun ^^....looking 4ward 4 silver!

wow...i thought i would hav written more. well nvm :)

this week we had monthly tests n choral speakin practices started again. i guess i shud b happy that were in the finals..but but....im missing classes n sej [well, not complainin TAT much] worse part i cant gossip wif cy n lex at the side! UNFAIR!!! i hate u guys = =

o yea....i just got my braces [hell yea] top on tues n bottom just now.... eating wif braces is HELL. tat day i could oni eat soft stuff and tats oni wif 3 teeth tat can chew wifout leaving me screaming = = well, tat was wif braces on the top jaw only. now wif the bottom i dunno how the hell im gonna eat...i guess ill hav to eat though the pain....for my love 4 food @.@ rite now im in pain. not only coz of the braces but coz i somehow managed to scrape my top lip n now eveytime i so much as smile, it hurts > tell u wat, when i find a decent pic of me in my braces, ill put it up ^^

im watchin goo goo dolls concert cd rite now. johny reznic [or however u spell his name] has a kick ass tattoo ^^ although i cant tell wat it is la...but still the concerts in the rain which is pretty cool

well, i gtg coz of hw, bm monthly test tomoro tat im NOT gonna study for n my upcoming piano trials :(:(:(:(:( gonna die gonna die gonna DIE

hehe

2007-04-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

once upon a time i fell in love wif this song n i still hold it near n dear to my heart ^^ it brings such meaning..............

my favourite part is when he shouts out 'u' 3 times :D they shud really do tat more often in their new album...fingers crossed ^^

2007-04-07T18:18:00.000+08:00

Linkin park

yay! they made a come bak ^^....though i would hav to admit i was kinda disappointed wif their new single off their new album : minutes to midnight. really...i still love their old favs lik numb, somewhere i belong, in the end n err...i think its called paper cut? hahaha :D

its called wat ive done...honestly i was hopin 4 more shouting :( like in faint....so nostalgic. their new song doesnt hav much of mike's vocals, n 4 some reason the lead singer looks like the U2 guy :S:S:S still ill maybe buy their album ^^

o yea...n i swear linkin park had 5 members rite? o i just checked...fine they had 6 members = =......weird...well... at lease their logo is kinda chun ^^

nice...very nice ^^

n i just discovered that the ne-yo i thought tat was full of himself n an usher wanna-be, turned out to be a not bad song writer.....seriously....he wrote irreplaceable-beyonce, unfaithful-rihhana [however u spell it], n err....burn!-usher :D he wrote some other stuff but i cant remember now ^^

it kinda changed my perspective on him i guess ^^ + he's in stomp the yard rite? not so sure whether he's acting but ill make sure i watch ....go ne-yo! ^^ hehe

2007-04-05T17:00:00.000+08:00

hm...no time to update = =

anyway i just discovered that my blog posts hav no title.....very swt

so from now on i will put my title as part of the post :D like so:

Random update

hm...i wanted to underline the title but they dun hav tat :(

anyway it has been almost a week since i wrote sth...so ill just summarize wat happened tis week :)

sunday: mum came bak from egypt...wif a really nice papyrus thingi wif my name in hieroglyphics n drawin 4 leo ^^ dam nice

monday: had prefect intereview ><>

tuesday: dun hav ulcer ad....[victory dance ^^]

wednesday: the day i received news i m suppose to lead the costume n design thingi 4 march past [NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

thursday: today, where most of the costume ppl decided to sit on their ass even AFTER the lectures n lectures we got = =. ill elaborate.

costume. why. WHY did i join = = shud hav gone to march past. n now im the supposed 'leader' to ppl who dun listen = = i do not deserve tis...some of them r of some good la....they actually do work. like cy, liling n sis's, afina n gang [sry gang i dunno ur names :D], fiona n gang oso [sry again] [o i know patricia's name :D], n tis brent guy n frend who r 11 ^^...did i 4get any1? err...o yea! tis guy din really do anything but he wears a green sweater n keeps drawin superman = = just felt like mentioning :D......also thankz the teachers: pn zarina n en.rosni who helped a bit ^^ omg...i sound lik im givin a speech at the grammy's....= = wahahahaha

k...tomorows a holiday so yay! ^^ so...im suppose to go to jusco but i doubt i can make it :( + i dun think any1 else is going except cy n maybe aishah >< + sis is going mega mall in the mornin 4 frends bday....dam, doubt ill hav transport ><

o yea....i heard tis ppl saying lee hom is gay = =............LEE HOM IS NOT GAY .......ass = =

if u find tis gay....ur blind = =

well, i needa go cut hair ad ^^

hehe , bye :)

2007-03-30T13:14:00.000+08:00

ok...pathetic i know but i dunno how else to put tis song = =

it doesnt work when i change the template so ill leave it till i find out how :)

picx

2007-03-30T12:52:00.000+08:00

kk...i would put the stuff together wif the other post BUT its not workin properly so im afraid it might go missing again :)

anyways...tis is aishah n cher in school

yesterday

2007-03-30T12:10:00.000+08:00

todays a friday, im on the bed wif the tv on, not in school BUT i did go yesterday. i wrote a post in the mornin but it failed to b posted = = dam frustratin, the whole post missing...so sad...
i wrote another one but it also couldnt load BUT this time i copied it ^^ hehe...so here it is

it was around 9.45:

omg...im in school now bored as hell...im gonna try to squize out one post since i hav asolutely nth to do = = well...i came on tues n wed both extremely boring days, din wanna come today BUT coz of the 'helping hands' essay...i had to = =

I hav been waiting here 4 the last 50 min 4 pang who disappeared 4 some reason = = n god im hungry...i think im gonna go down n if i see pang...im gonna kick him = =

cher is the only one who came today i think, she has softball so ill see her later....i dunno whether shu sim's gonna show but cy died = = theres 2 korean guys playing ping pong in front of me....swt
o...n after school im most likely going to the dentist to get braces. i wanna get it over wif but but but.....................i miss my teeth >< n if not being able to eat 4 a week after wasnt bad enough, the 2 ulcers r still bugging me = = salt and ulcer aid hav failed me = =
omg...im hungry..dun care gonna eat ad = = tis is the swt-iest post yet ...wahahaha bye ^^

tats wat happened in the mornin...the rest of the day was actually not tat bad...kinda fun ^^ better than tues n wed la = = walked around...support handball n softball....dam seladang won handball girls ><>
other than walking...we went library 4 a while to sleep..haha

o..n i made a new record...i oni ate twice :D:D:D dunno wat happened to me..wahahaha
o yea...n pang came at 9.30 sth...= = hahahaha. well, i din kick him la but i did scold him :D swt

ok...i 4got to mention....my shoes :( its so nice!! n new ><>..........why ><
its was white....but now its all brown in the sides :(......im so sad

so tat was my day yesterday...o yea...i din go dentist...everyone 4got...wahahaha ^^ still got my teeth
kk frasiers on...ill post sth later :D

i hav 2..............ulcers = =

2007-03-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

omg...i hav 2 ulcers = =... 1 on top n 1 down. wat did i do????? tis is soooo karma but i dunno wat i did wrong = =

Haih...i put salt on it...let it burn a while but till noww it din seem to make a diff ><
I dunno y but...im kinda addicted to the pain :S

Put salt twice ad...no diff...still pain-ing :(:(:(
ill try the real ulcer medicine la = =

stuff i like

2007-03-24T11:43:00.000+08:00

hm...since im watching mtv now n theres my fav song im just gonna list down all the songs im addicted to lately ^^ the list aint in order...i just wrote the first thing that came to me.

wat goes around, comes around- JT
keep ur hands off my girl -good charlotte
in ur arms -hello goodbye
wif love -hillary duff
giv it to me -timbaland, nelly furtado, JT
love me or hate me -lady sovereign
tell me -p diddy feaet c.aguilera
girlfriend! -avril lavigne
[i dunno the title but the song goes 'ba-da-da-da, ba-da-da-da alot :D]
diary of jane -breaking benjamin [i know its old]
put ur money where ur mouth is -jet [also old :P]
circle circle dot dot [ok i dun really like it i just find it funny ^^]
and of course....how to save a life -the fray....its addictive ><

If i like anything else ill just add later ^^

im also the biggest tv addict i know ^^...i watch alot of random stuff. i click the remote till i see sth i like. i usually watch those 1/2 hour shows from star world but the thing is i get confused when i watch the office ><. but i like grey's anotomy n sadly one tree hill too.....i know ppl say it sucks but its nicela/ OR i watch a movie, somtimes if i feel like it i even turn to channel 50 too...wahahaha

cartoons i watch nowadays: spongobob, fairly odd parents n lazy town! dun laugh :D lazy town is the most amazing kids show coz of tht guy constantly jumping around....seriously! watch it n u'll know wat i mean...n the dude wif the chin is hilarious :D

o...n someone PLZ tell me how to put music in my blog ><

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2007-03-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

hi ^^, i finally decided to make my own blog. wahahahaha
Even wif the other blog i hav, i still hav no idea wat im doin ^^...
But u cant blame me ok! tis blogger thingi is hard to get ><
So many buttons o.o + half the stuff dun make sense ><
anyway, i will try really really hard to try n maintain the 2 blogs that i hav but i doubt tat will happen...wahahaha

Just like the other, the process of making tis blog was full of jam-ing and frustrating blog skins = =
no way im gonna spend an hour trying to change the page elements into sth normal...i had to force shut down most of the tabs or the com did it by itself...wanna swear ad = =

haha im getting angry :P
ill update the rest of the stuff once i get my hands on my dads com :D for some ironic reason his has never jammed b4 = = dam

okok needa edit some stuff first so ill post sth later la ^^