my iNFatuation___

Saturday, January 26, 2008

I always thought that i should be happy with what i have, grateful, appreciative. You know, like being thankful and not wanting more than i can chew. Cause everything you have can leave you at anytime and because happiness is a choice right?

So i was, choosing to be happy with what i have. And it was great being content. But then, time can change alot so after alot of thinking,

I think i deserve more. No i am not being greedy ok, im not talking about belongings and things, for that i have many. im not talking about special treatment or attention for that i have no desire. no, i do not want anything material.

Its just that sometimes, im sure im not alone, you think you could have done better, make better choices. so then you need'nt have to keep choosing to be happy when you actually are.

so it is so wrong that i feel this way?

1:32 PM

by sha sha

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

no tuition today (: thank god cause i haven even touched my bm homework.

still, being optimistic i am so very very happy. n omg did u hear heith ledger died!!! (ok fine damn random but it suddenly came to me after watching the Daily 10.)

so sudden and so sad ): i never really liked him but still....why are people dying of one by one -_-

and oh yes we must all support my schools latest campaign about sexually transmitted diseases! (awareness la)

because right, i arrange wan :P well not only me la my other 3 people n i are all working for it right now and and it must be successful! if not die die
basically its like we talk talk about how u will DIE then people wont have sex then tada! no more STD's :P

im kinda terrified of publicizing it cause i the point is really to go around saying sexsexsex and making it sound normal...

...i cant do that!

i am completely useless when it comes to talking. i mean really, i am totally unexperienced in the area concerned -___-

ok i realize this is a very stupid post but still! its been a week and i honestly have nothing interesting to talk about.

8:46 PM

by sha sha

Monday, January 14, 2008

now you tell me,

what is the point of copying a 500 WORD KARANGAN?

i mean, i dont have the slightest clue what the karangan is about and it is just so ridiculous to do one EVERY week. to write one, however horrible it may be, makes sense la. but why copy?

i therefore memberontak copying of any sort. hmph.

and then my hand will die i tell you. - -

next time when i have children i shall teach them to be ambidextrous so that when they copy stupid karangan's in school their hands wont die.

I am so thoughful ^^ hehehe

and then and then.... i will be voted mother of the year wahahahaha :D

5:27 PM

by sha sha

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

i am unhappy today

when i am unhappy, i eat
and so i ate and ate and ate

but i feel the same.hell i kinda still feel like eating

so i wrote and wrote and wrote
but other that my hand hurting, no difference

then i talked and talked and talked
but a phone call can only last so long

so screw this

i am going to sleep, cause its the only way to stop thinking.

i think todays the first day that i went to school and didnt want to come back.

11:36 PM

by sha sha

Sunday, January 6, 2008

school started,

and omg why must you give me so much homework :( and scold me i was so nice la ok i did everything you asked for but dont know why never enough

but nevermind that, homeword and stupid people i can handle. what i cannot handle is the incessant drilling in my house - - why la must they drill every single day

this is what happens when parents dont know what to do with money, like in chiyee's house and soon to be shusim's place too. they tear the place down for the sake of some massive renovation which is pretty cool excluding the dust and the vacumming and the me having to help vacuum which is very not fun :( and honest to god that stupid vacuum does NOT WORK AT ALL. no matter how many times i go over the same place again and again.

omg i cannot take the constant banging..

.. someone make it stop @@

edit:

just realized im home alone because whole family went out to visit the little girl that was sick and still kinda is but is getting better :) anyway i couldnt go because stupid i started coughing in the morning :(

why la i dont even think im sick just a lil cold but still cant go :( cause you see, she has a low immune system thing thus cannot fight infection and stuff....

omg they should be having kfc now...without me :'(

2:54 PM

by sha sha

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

happy new year people :)

i normally dont care about new year but this time i made a big deal so that i can manage myself out of the house till after midnight hehehe

anyway...thank you thank you shusim cause without you i might have not been able to go :)

spent the whole day with with my current favourite person but i wont go into detail. what i can see is that when i watched AVP2 it was so disappointing i have hardly anything to say about it.

i mean, maybe i watched too may alien movies and predetor movies and alien versus predetor movies to appreatiate the goriness anymore. but thats all the movie was about- disgusting killing and blood flying around. AND i think the AVP people lost their touch cause not once did i jump from my seat or squeal or anything. - -

and the ending....well im not quite sure what happened cause the ending was so abrupt. but that might just be me. :)

went to the curve and the fireworks were pretty chun and terribly long. by the time i reached home it was 3am omg mum was like 'ur not going anywhere anymore'

but it wasnt my fault ok the traffic was like NOT MOVING :( one hour in the car and i could still see ikea

.......

anyway ill post up new year resolutions once i think of something....

oh yea have to buy school books cause school in 2 days omg ><>

8:56 PM

by sha sha

hi ^^
im 16, love to watch tv, eat n enjoy sleeping. i hav uncontrolable hair but i love it all the same.
im weird but among my frends i m indeed sane. im a complete ass to my sis, i cant help it
oni talk to ppl i know :D hehe...most ppl scare me

InTerests

food ^^ some say im picky but if i really lik somethin, ill eat it all day :)
LEE HOM, i buy anythin wif his face on it, well almost everything
i m a good student, yes i m. but form 4's an ass so i dun do my hw :)
tv...i like cartoons lik spongebob n lazy town :D dam interesting. other shows i lik r incredibly random, too lazy to write them down
BlacK is my favvv colour ^^
i lik coconut...gonna make a point to eat it more

desires

new com la...vista not nice oso :(
a tv
a new pair of pants :D
jay chao's album......maybe even rain
to go buffet... wahahaha
watch movies i missed since last year ^^
meet lee hom = =, ok fine...watch his new movie :D
a new fossil watch...hopefully digital :)

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my infatuation. an agreeable rapture. seemingly inevitable. I fade away, adrift in his presense. craving our idle banter although to him, im expendable. to love him is to be punished with no certainty of escape.

anyway..tqz 4 visiting, come bak again k? hehe bye bye