my iNFatuation___

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

it has dawned upon me that i am indeed a very gullible person - - one who accepts and gives in to everything, well almost everything. and even though it has yet to happen i dont want people stepping all over me as though i have no authority.

*hmph* i need to learn to make sure people get that i m bigger than you so listen to me and leave.

so my new resolution is to learn to say no :D

kinda sounds like the taknak advertisement but its ok ^^

not only say no to people la but to other stuff that i am not suppose to indulge myself in. like food and greys anotomy 3rd season and and omg the wonderfulness of sleeping and of course must learn say no to....some other thing ^^ hehe

anyway, so far the saying no thing isnt really working out because i was suppose to not eat KFC just now but i did and im not suppose to eat something else and i did and suppose to not do that other thing but i did

but! i assure you that one day i will master the art of rejecting so perfectly until ya'll amazed by my ability. yes, very very amazed :)

9:59 PM

by sha sha

Monday, November 19, 2007

i count down the minutes each time before we meet. and when we do he embraces me in his arms as i return the gesture, burying my face in his chest.

his delicate touch against my skin reminds me of why i am in his arms and noone elses. why i wouldnt want to anyway and why all his antics however unfavourible are tolerable and will remain as such even if i could possible get him to correct.

also, he is very very annoying

the way he somehow never seems to get hungry EVER, and how his hair is never always just right or how despite the enormous evidence to the contrary he actually is high maintainence and sadly unaffortable to me and how his knees are beyond repair. at times it gets to me but its part of the package, not to be averted

and i love the package ^^

10:09 PM

by sha sha

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

first of all i'd lik to wish shu sim happy 16th birthday :)

you have been a good friend these past few years.

__________

anyway....school ends in 2 days

omgomg cantwaitcantwait

BUT have to go school on saturday for primary school concert lik what the hell why do we have to take care of primary people = =

and somemore suppose to go to school sunday for some conference thingi for the interact club. 8.00am -5.30pm i think. luckily i cannot go walalala

so...for the holidays i can work in school. RM40 a day to do paperwork and maybe a few calls. good money i could make 200 a week easy.

but i dunno whether to do anot....somemore nothing in school to go see also :( come to think of it the whole school will be all internationals. bleh*

o yeah the band boys like girls, its so confusing! is it boys who like girls or boys that act like girls? someone tell me please.. = =

11:32 PM

by sha sha

Monday, November 5, 2007

this post was suppose to be a picture filled one of the recent renovation of my room but somthing else came up.
something that makes the disagreements of the colour of my room seem so insignificant.

i saw her maybe on wednesday and she was her usual bouncy jovial self, smiling and all reading her high school musical book, a present from a friend on her recent 9th birthday. her smile was always infectious and she always found a way to make me laugh.

yea she was annoying here and there but who could help it. its nice when you know theres someone that looks up to you, thinks of you more than older person. she even calls me her teacher sometimes when i teach her random stuff. helps brighten the day.

and now she lays in a hospital bed in the ICU finally in stable condition after being admitted last night.

the diagnosis has yet to be confirmed but she is suspected to have leukemia. for those of you who dont already know, its bone marrow cancer where there is an excess amount of white blood cells that attack your red blood cells i think. something like that.

now i await the clock to strike 12, before being allowed to visit her.

i hope shes ok.

11:35 AM

by sha sha

Friday, November 2, 2007

i need a picnic. complete with the picnic table and picnic basket with carefully arranged sandwiches and other assorted picnic-food for the day. and picnic people with their ever lasting smiles gleaming right and left.

then i could lie down on the grass and look at clouds and empty all thoughts that have been gnawing at me.
i really really need a picnic.

someone bring me go picnic please please :(

sometimes when i think of losing you somehow, it scares me beyond all measure of pain.

1:19 AM

by sha sha

hi ^^
im 16, love to watch tv, eat n enjoy sleeping. i hav uncontrolable hair but i love it all the same.
im weird but among my frends i m indeed sane. im a complete ass to my sis, i cant help it
oni talk to ppl i know :D hehe...most ppl scare me

InTerests

food ^^ some say im picky but if i really lik somethin, ill eat it all day :)
LEE HOM, i buy anythin wif his face on it, well almost everything
i m a good student, yes i m. but form 4's an ass so i dun do my hw :)
tv...i like cartoons lik spongebob n lazy town :D dam interesting. other shows i lik r incredibly random, too lazy to write them down
BlacK is my favvv colour ^^
i lik coconut...gonna make a point to eat it more

desires

new com la...vista not nice oso :(
a tv
a new pair of pants :D
jay chao's album......maybe even rain
to go buffet... wahahaha
watch movies i missed since last year ^^
meet lee hom = =, ok fine...watch his new movie :D
a new fossil watch...hopefully digital :)

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hey...welcome to my blog, feel free to move around. i write whenever i lik meaning i might not update for weeks or update trice a day :D n im kinda lazy so u can expect wat will happen.

so the title of tis thing is DESTINY but honestly i just choose it lik really fast n mostly coz its black ^^ but the eagle thing is pretty cool la

my infatuation. an agreeable rapture. seemingly inevitable. I fade away, adrift in his presense. craving our idle banter although to him, im expendable. to love him is to be punished with no certainty of escape.

anyway..tqz 4 visiting, come bak again k? hehe bye bye