Wednesday, October 24, 2007
it took me about an hour to answer all my emails n check frendster and all that shit i hav comfortably neglected over the week of raya holidays
and in that time i managed to plan out this really long blog post in my head that would have been really interesting to write. then i thought to myself, people cannot read this. so now here i am, sitting on the bed wondering what to do.
i need to organise all this crap in my head and the best place to do so would obviously be in my blog but i just cant. i cannot write down all the little things that have been bugging me, all the little insecurities and nonsense that goes about my daily life. cause when it comes down it when people get inside your head, they look at you in a different light.
and right now i really dont want to be noticed at all. i know this is retarded and all but i kinda sorta miss the days when i was a mere shadow in school, walking around minding my own business and the once in a while screw ups that come and go without anyone noticing.
so like duh the answer would be wordpress right since everyone is either already or going to use it. so maybe ill consider changing since i never really liked my current blogskin anyway. buttt, if i ever do use wordpress, nobody's getting the password ...walalalalaala
that kinda makes it a diary i guess..right?
ah whatever ill just try to write this without giving much away.
ok, how do you sum up notgoodenough into one word?
inadequate, perfect.
and that is how i feel. and it really does feel crappy sometimes.
and sometimes on the rarest of occasions i just lie down in bed and dont want to get up. i mean its like whats the point in doing 100 add maths questions AFTER the finals are over, running a site that NOONE visits, don the black uniform every morning and get all the wonderful marks in the world when it doesnt matter when you NEED it to.
when all efforts sum up to absolutely zero and there is NOTHING on god's green earth that can change that fact.
12:18 AM
by sha sha
Friday, October 12, 2007
isnt the holidays suppose to be fun-filled days and sleepless nights and all-you-can-eat day in day out?well,this time around the holidays are getting boring, very boring. thus, in a sudden need for sappy-ness and cool medical-ness, i bought the first season of greys anatomy.who knew it was only 9 episodes? cost around RM70 i think. bought it yesterday finished it this morning. once again i am devoid and bored.nobody replying my sms somemore :(oh no wonder sms wrong number - -i swear i thought that was his number. great now memory gone also.and oh yea i hate people who just walk in like they own the room, don't give you the respect you deserve and then start talking like they're running the bloody showcan show some respect to the person in front anot = = im there for a reason youknowedit: i remember his number! wahaha got the 6 and the 3 mixed up :PLabels: holidays
7:24 PM
by sha sha
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
oh my godexams are over.yipee *dance dance* hehephysics okla but moral, was a totally different story. bloody hell i could throw the paper out the window and it wont make a difference. its tuesday god damn it how the hell is anyone suppose to concentrate you tell me = =andddddddd adzraai, the guy who said he was going to give up on sejarah and never again pick up the text book unlike the rest of us who actually studied the test, got HIGHEST, yes tertinggi untuk matapelajaran sejarah*pause*no words can describe how rediculus this itbut but but on a lighter note, add maths marks are ok i think ^^_______alright, enough about exams, i shall recite
If I say who I know, it just goes to show
You need me less than I need you
Take it from me
We dont give sympathy
You can trust me trust nobody
But I said you and me
We dont have honesty
The things we dont want to speak
Ill try to get out but I never will
The fray-trust me
walalala the meltingness ^^
Labels: exams
9:04 PM
by sha sha
Saturday, October 6, 2007
im in over my headbiten off more than i can chewand now i have officially screwed my sejarah, maths, chemistry god how i screwed chemi think i terpesong one bm novel question too and im certainly gonna screw physics tomorow. not to mention math2 prepared by that maniacal teacher from damansara with absolutely no mercy for us students who are going to fail.and ohmygod 7 bidang's of moral on tuesday T.Tand pmr ended. that is so unfair!ANYWAY drifting away from the topic,i wanna go penang.i was'nt sure whether i should go at first but now i am without choice. i have to go and clean up the mess that i have partially caused and talk to people that i have possibly influenced. i mean for gods sake is it so hard for people to keep a secret? why is it when i say dont tell DONT TELL you go call and then tell people = = now see so the mafan-ing me i have to go 400km away and hopefully build back what was once a clean relationaship between all peoples. i am so tired of people who cant be trusted. why laaaaaaaa finally a silver lining, my guitar teacher just called n canceled classWALALALA i havent touched the guitar since god knows when. not my fault ok i had exams ^^now i have the deepest desire to talk to someone. and lose weight. so im going to go call someone maybe and NOT eat lunch. i wonder how long that'll last.ok then bye bye ^^Labels: penang
1:22 PM
by sha sha
me
hi ^^
im 16, love to watch tv, eat n enjoy sleeping. i hav uncontrolable hair but i love it all the same.
im weird but among my frends i m indeed sane. im a complete ass to my sis, i cant help it
oni talk to ppl i know :D hehe...most ppl scare me
InTerests
food ^^ some say im picky but if i really lik somethin, ill eat it all day :)
LEE HOM, i buy anythin wif his face on it, well almost everything
i m a good student, yes i m. but form 4's an ass so i dun do my hw :)
tv...i like cartoons lik spongebob n lazy town :D dam interesting. other shows i lik r incredibly random, too lazy to write them down
BlacK is my favvv colour ^^
i lik coconut...gonna make a point to eat it more
desires
new com la...vista not nice oso :(
a tv
a new pair of pants :D
jay chao's album......maybe even rain
to go buffet... wahahaha
watch movies i missed since last year ^^
meet lee hom = =, ok fine...watch his new movie :D
a new fossil watch...hopefully digital :)
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hey...welcome to my blog, feel free to move around. i write whenever i lik meaning i might not update for weeks or update trice a day :D n im kinda lazy so u can expect wat will happen.
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my infatuation. an agreeable rapture. seemingly inevitable. I fade away, adrift in his presense. craving our idle banter although to him, im expendable.
to love him is to be punished with no certainty of escape.
anyway..tqz 4 visiting, come bak again k? hehe bye bye
