my iNFatuation___

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

i wanna rest my head on my fluffy pillow n never wake up. stare at my poster-covered walls with meloncholy songs banging in my ear at full volume.

lights off, the only thing seen are the shadows of the tree outside creeping in from my window. when the music's off, its quiet, apart from the muffled voices of cnn spokesmen from daddys room. the smell of that particular perfume still lingering in the air.

my icy cold toes are wrapped in my blanket, but i still feel warm. i run my fingers down the side of my wooden bed. i run it through my tangled hair. everythings so placid, just the way i lik it.

eyes almost closed as i fumble to find the source of the ringing.

i find my phone, n a familiar number.

i cant help but smile :)

if only u were here beside me now.

then everything would be perfect.

Labels: my bed

9:50 PM

by sha sha

Thursday, June 21, 2007

ok. my food consumption today

11.00- i greedy-gutly gobbled up all my fried rice within 10 minutes after probate meeting. which kinda made me choke half the time, u see i had no water. n i feel kinda bad coz chi yee was just sitting there staring into space. hehe sorry chi yee :)

1.30- believe it or not i was still hungry. so i managed to cram down 2 dim sum [6 pieces] which was surprisingly filling. stupid chen yee stared at me lik i was some kinda eating machine thingi = =

4...something - i was hungry again :D so ate rice n fish n other.. side dishes.

8....something? - mum came home n sis all went eat. n everyone knows food is tastier wif company. so i joyfully swallowed everything i ate at 4 all over again :D:D

10.30 ish- i love my father. he brought bak nasi lemak on the way home from singapore. wahaha

n i love my mother, who did not eat her share. which can only mean that i can! WAHAHA n eating nasi lemak in one hand, where there was no table, with a spoon in the dark while msn-ing is NOT easy. but it was.. fun ^^

n i think i rather prefer those nasi lemak's tat come in small packages with great sambal tat is lik 50% of the whole thing compared to the modern-ized nasi lemak with chicken and stuff.

dun get me wrong the chicken is good :) just the other one is more.. nasi lemak-ish

i know la i dam wat...

anyway... who said im not fat? this is proof ppl, hard evidence.

total:

3 servings of rice
2 nasi lemaks
2 dim sum wahaha

wat para ate:

fish

such self control... @@ dam u la para. cacat...

Labels: food food ^^

10:37 PM

by sha sha

Monday, June 18, 2007

a few days ago, a thought occured to me of how i hav lost so much and gained so little.. how at the time it didnt seem lik such a big deal.

heed the lessons of failure right? maybe for everything else. but for this, i would give alot to go bak n tell myself to THINK.

anyway, wats done is done. all i can do now is sit n talk shit.

so, in a nostalgic mood i thought about the bittersweet moments in life tat i will forever cherish. moments where time was in a stand still and everything was picture perfect. moments which will most probably never come by again.

but im grateful tat at lease once, i felt....wanted. maybe even needed. at lease i knew tat me was important and tat me had a reason to be. not just the class monitor or the probate or the stupid good girl.

tat me was me for reasons more than three.

to not be forgotten :) n never forget. how much i miss...

o yea
i currently hav an obsession with mushrooms. = =

10:20 PM

by sha sha

Friday, June 15, 2007

some people hav the best timing

but some hav the worse... u just had to b this one = =

omg omg omg

why why why why why why why

why do u break the pieces, wait till i pick them up

before u break them again... :(

ok maybe u dont do it intentionally but still, i was over the whole over-eager anticipation for something that i knew wasnt going to happen

and

after the bloody roller coaster of emotions u sent me through. i hav NO IDEA where i am, wat im suppose to say. seriously... wat m i going to say???

big girls dont cry is on the radio. so ill suck it in now. ill shut up. do nothing. play along to watever the hell ur planning. but trust me it wont be the same. i wont giv u the satisfaction and the pleasure of triumph.

i know ur not some evil incarnation of satan or something. but how do u think i feel?

sigh. the doughnut im eating isnt as sweet as it shud b.

today. ur not too.

Labels: time

8:05 PM

by sha sha

Friday, June 8, 2007

went penang on sunday by bus. me n sis only hahahahahaha dam fun :D

they showed 3 movies in the duration of the trip; God of cookery [some stupid chinese movie = =] , some black n white beatles movie which was surprisingly not bad and a movie called G.O.D. lik wat...the ....hell

stupid, yes i know.

anyway in the bus it was raining and the raindrops did this really cool dance thingi on the window. the journey was bumpy so they moved in a long unbroken stair pattern instead of the regular vertical thing. i guess the long unbrokenness is coz of tat whole high cohesion capability of water. dam bio.

ANYWAY it was really pretty n for some reason i was just staring at it for a really really long time.

then my sis suddenly turned and was like 'they look lik worms.......DIS-GUS-TING'

we broke into laughter. my sis has tis rediculus ability to make me laugh at any time and place, which is y i love her oh so much ^^

well, i went to penang for my 2 lovely cousins, arv n ash. no need their full name la. :P

omg...i just realized i hav no pics of them o.o haiyo...nvm la

so after 2 nights in penang, me, sis, 2 cousins n their parents packed our bags for Swiss Garden Golf n Spa Resort in lumut, perak. the place was really really preeeeeeeety

hehe the best part was the beach was EMPTY n we sooo DOMINATED the whole place screaming n shouting with the waves. erm, there was tis sign tat said there were jellyfish around so we werent really keen to go far :D

instead we childishly made tis really cool sand castle thingi ^^

it was kinda cute. there wasnt any walls but there were sea shells n tis middle thingi tat looks lik angkor wat. wahahahahaa :D i think i hav a pic. hmm

hehe...rocks n tire ^^ wahaha

tis bridge thingi was really pwetty *_* from right, sis, small couz ash, n yours truly.

o yea... my couz sis hates the camera = = so no shots of her..

n b4 i forget....i watched BLADES OF GLORY

WAHAHAHA :D:D:D

Labels: penang

12:13 AM

by sha sha

Friday, June 1, 2007

tired. but happy ^^ im happy today

shit never goes the way u plan it to. but today, luckily it wasnt tat bad. kinda nice. fun. its fun walking around aimlessly talking shit without a care in the world ^^

shrek 3 was nice

potc 3 was nice

I WAN BLADES OF GLORY!!!

wahaha, sis watched. said it was funny :( yerrrr i wan

omg random post. the angry bit comes later la. lazy now

point is...im happy

im happy today even with u there

10:45 PM

by sha sha

hi ^^
im 16, love to watch tv, eat n enjoy sleeping. i hav uncontrolable hair but i love it all the same.
im weird but among my frends i m indeed sane. im a complete ass to my sis, i cant help it
oni talk to ppl i know :D hehe...most ppl scare me

InTerests

food ^^ some say im picky but if i really lik somethin, ill eat it all day :)
LEE HOM, i buy anythin wif his face on it, well almost everything
i m a good student, yes i m. but form 4's an ass so i dun do my hw :)
tv...i like cartoons lik spongebob n lazy town :D dam interesting. other shows i lik r incredibly random, too lazy to write them down
BlacK is my favvv colour ^^
i lik coconut...gonna make a point to eat it more

desires

new com la...vista not nice oso :(
a tv
a new pair of pants :D
jay chao's album......maybe even rain
to go buffet... wahahaha
watch movies i missed since last year ^^
meet lee hom = =, ok fine...watch his new movie :D
a new fossil watch...hopefully digital :)

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hey...welcome to my blog, feel free to move around. i write whenever i lik meaning i might not update for weeks or update trice a day :D n im kinda lazy so u can expect wat will happen.

so the title of tis thing is DESTINY but honestly i just choose it lik really fast n mostly coz its black ^^ but the eagle thing is pretty cool la

my infatuation. an agreeable rapture. seemingly inevitable. I fade away, adrift in his presense. craving our idle banter although to him, im expendable. to love him is to be punished with no certainty of escape.

anyway..tqz 4 visiting, come bak again k? hehe bye bye