my iNFatuation___

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

wow. fourth post today. im on a roll :) wahaha

anyway. i tried using youtube to post the choral speaking comp rite. so, the freaking thing din work = = lik wth!

anyway i used immem instead ^^ n i think it works.

well, the choral speaking comp was in alamanda, the first ever private school nationals for this choral speaking n.....*drum roll* we got second place = =

like wattt the heccckkkkkkk laaaaaaaa.

i mean we practiced soooo long n honestly we all thought we deserved tat big shiny trophy :(

gold went to jusco ppl. no offence. i din see their performance so i cant really say much or start insulting.....we got the tiny pathetic excuse for a trophy instead

haih. well, anyway the medal is pretty la ^^ the cert aint tat bad too. purple for some reason.

well, here's us... try to look for me ^^

hey...i tried to make it fit la ok = = not my fault its cacated..

7:04 PM

by sha sha

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5:50 PM

by sha sha

update:

i just realized i found tis really really pretty colour thing :D:D

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wahaha...green, yellow N orange :D:D:D so pwetty ^^

1:00 AM

by sha sha

no more exams, no more studying.

tis whole 2 weeks while cracking my head i was thinking of all the things i would do once tis hell hole was done wif. BUT now tat the bloody shit is over, i find myself staring up at the ceiling. phone in one hand, the remote in the other. i have nothin to do.

all the movies watched, all the errands done.

its boring. but i won complain. not after math2

after tat paper, i realized tat i will fail my first subject in my secondary life (a major sub anyway) n even my ppl who disagree tat i will fail anything else, hav all come to terms with the utter disaster which was our math 2

already at the end of the day n although i told myself ill stick with it until the final minute. i gave up n handed in that stupid piece of paper tat will give me my first ever non-A for maths in my LIFE. thank u, bugger of a teacher in damansara.

n yes, i did indeed die for chem, moral, sej, bio, phy n bm. but everything fades in comparison with maths. stupid, i know how it sounds. hell everybody will agree with me when i say tat ADD MATHS WAS EASIER. heck, i got an 84 n TAT was BAD.

n after allllll tat shit over the past 2 weeks.

all i wanted was me time. time for nothing but me, myself n i.

now i hav all the time in the world. then u came.

spur of the moment:

wat do u do when all common sense n logic told u one thing. one thing tat u hav come to terms with. then, suddenly, he changes the rules of the game. says n does things against the game plan.

u confused me n at times, yea, u were pretty freaking scary. then the thought of something different occured. the thought tat maybe, just maybe

u were different

kinda freaky, but i was happy. happy tat maybe life could surprise u in a GOOD way. happy tat maybe tis was tat break i needed from all the hassle n shit.

n then u had to do it.

it had to be one of those guy things. one of those things u say but dun really mean. wat do i say? wat do i do?

for now, ill pretend. pretend tat im ur frend although i know i wan so much more.

great.

well, at lease now i hav something to fill all tat 'me' time with.

12:01 AM

by sha sha

Monday, May 14, 2007

no updates for 2 weeks. having tests n hav to study :) when i do come bak though ill try to post the choral speaking competition for yall ^^ im so good rite?

6:59 PM

by sha sha

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Did not realize it was wednesday already. haih, next week exam :( screwed for chem, phy, BIO, ADD MATH, [note the emphasis on add maths] MORAL, SEJ n believe it or not, math = = bm goes without saying.

no way im gonna be optimistic. im going to fail. F. A. I. L. no more number 1 :(

next, im going to say something that many or all of you are not going to agree on. i actually partially agree with dr rizal bout the canteen food. i know yall r gonna trample me tomolo

yes, the food is expensive which is unacceptable. n replacing our glorious food was not a wise move. but still, u hav to pay some credit to dr rizal for his effort rite? i mean honestly, the food is healthier and at the rate we WERE going, we would have all died from cardiac arrest at age 21 = =

the whole extra variety thing though, is a pile of crap la. we had a wide menu before. its just that at lease now we have a healthier lifestyle, well as healthy as it can possibly get. but for those who bring food from home, im all for u. ok, now i sound very the contradictive of myself. k i better stop

the point is that the food is still overpriced n the canteen givs u an overall uncomfortable feel, yes. but lets give them a chance ok? ^^ they are here to stay whether we lik it or not.

n before i forget. probation sucks. BIG TIME

10:53 PM

by sha sha

Sunday, May 6, 2007

i've been angry lately. DUH = =. still, is it just me or is anger-filled, sorrowful posts easier to write? ahh, well

so as promised, here is a happy post ^^

err. the only thing i can think about is how my guitar teacher told me i look thin. WAHAHA dam happy :) even though i ate kfc lik yesterday. screw my diet ^^ ate 3 pieces, wanted another but had to save for study-skills sis :(

about my diet. its not working = = everywhere i go, theres carbs carbs n more carbs = = so unfair! i cant deny my eternal love with rice @@ n chicken of course.

i even tried exercising tat day. burned 200 calories ^^ but i guess it doesnt matter since i ate a ramli burger before tat which is over 1000 calories = =. thank u, overpriced-zerotaste-unorganised stupid new canteen management.

anddd i got accepted as probate. last year i would have been happy but rite now i cant make up my mind. kinda weird, the only reason im doing this is for the cert. u do get a cert rite? i dont feel like a probate. doubt ill ever feel like one.

but the plus side is sher min is my senior! ^^ yea, go cher.

hehe, i still din take my chem test. which reminds me tat: choral speaking finals next week! 12th at alamanda....i mean we practiced alot but im afraid the other schools are gonna kick our ass. so i know u won but for those who can, come on sat n support ur school yea? ^^

ok fine, so this post wasnt exactly happy-filled. ill try to be less random in future

6:41 PM

by sha sha

Friday, May 4, 2007

she tells me i will grow up unhappy. to hate everything and everyone around me. i will grow up bitter and angry, ungrateful for what i have.

she tells me i disregard my family. i care only for my friends. always putting them before my own dam blood. she tells me i make them unhappy, i ruin their days. she says once i have children of my own, will i understand, n taste my own medicine. till then i remain the same.

im a burden. a heavy heavy burden.

she doesnt know, i understand. she has no idea what i go through. how much i try. it doesnt matter. life finds a way to bring you down, even when you're at your high. sure at one time i didnt care but honestly right now it doesnt matter.

it doesnt matter how much i try. how much i've changed or at least tried to. i was and always will be tat rebel. the black sheep. ill never be good enough.

once their mind is made up, you dont get to make a second first impression.

sorry mum, i tried.

12:17 AM

by sha sha

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

sometimes, i want to cry so bad, but i dont have a shoulder to lean on to. no one to talk to, to comfort, to share, to make me feel like im the special someone in his world even if im having a crummy day.

no one who gives a dam.

i dun expect to fly first class. i know im not the prettiest, the smartest or the richest from the bunch. my lifes coach. [quote 1 3 hill]

but all i want is for someone to want me back, is tat so much to ask?

heck i always wanted way too much anyway.

i envy those who hav but dont cherish. for all of you out there who has someone. hold on tight. you dont know how god dam lucky ya'll are.

5:46 PM

by sha sha

hi ^^
im 16, love to watch tv, eat n enjoy sleeping. i hav uncontrolable hair but i love it all the same.
im weird but among my frends i m indeed sane. im a complete ass to my sis, i cant help it
oni talk to ppl i know :D hehe...most ppl scare me

InTerests

food ^^ some say im picky but if i really lik somethin, ill eat it all day :)
LEE HOM, i buy anythin wif his face on it, well almost everything
i m a good student, yes i m. but form 4's an ass so i dun do my hw :)
tv...i like cartoons lik spongebob n lazy town :D dam interesting. other shows i lik r incredibly random, too lazy to write them down
BlacK is my favvv colour ^^
i lik coconut...gonna make a point to eat it more

desires

new com la...vista not nice oso :(
a tv
a new pair of pants :D
jay chao's album......maybe even rain
to go buffet... wahahaha
watch movies i missed since last year ^^
meet lee hom = =, ok fine...watch his new movie :D
a new fossil watch...hopefully digital :)

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hey...welcome to my blog, feel free to move around. i write whenever i lik meaning i might not update for weeks or update trice a day :D n im kinda lazy so u can expect wat will happen.

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my infatuation. an agreeable rapture. seemingly inevitable. I fade away, adrift in his presense. craving our idle banter although to him, im expendable. to love him is to be punished with no certainty of escape.

anyway..tqz 4 visiting, come bak again k? hehe bye bye